Like A Knife

There's going to be a gathering for the NA dudes and babes this March.

I'm not sure if I wanna go.

No, I wanna go but I don't wanna go.

I don't get me. Tskk.

Tumblr has been entertaining lately. :)

Hababa said I'm always sad.

Why do all these kind of people always say that?

It's either sad or stress.

This would be the third time.

Not counting doctors, for the stress part.

& she knows I have a boyfriend, despite us being strangers.

Wow. The wonders of being aged, like, damn aged.

Just by looking at me, she could tell.

Uhh-may-zing.

She said other stuffs 'bout me too.

& I like some but I won't tell ya.

The thing is, she knows I'm sick too.

Actually, the whole time we were there, the pain was bothering me.

But I just sat and listened and tried my best to understand.

My malay is already so bad, what more Indonesian?

Tskkk.

I ate Maggie mee today.

I'm asking for trouble, huh?

But what to do, nothing else to eat.

Like I said to Sisto last night,

If it's your time to die, you'll die.

Right?

No matter how cautious you are with your life,

no matter how many precautions you take,

when it's your time, it's your time.

You can't stop it, or change it.

Okay, yes. I am sad.

I'm not particularly sure why.

I can only be happy for a moment, just for that moment.

Then I'll go back to feeling sorry for myself.

Well, maybe not feeling sorry.

Just that sad feeling.

I don't know.

I try to be happy sometimes.

Putting your troubles behind you isn't that difficult.

But it isn't easy either.

Sometimes, I think that I'm happy.

But maybe that happiness doesn't reach inside me.

Someone, define happy.

Someone, define sad.

Thank you.

I don't have the mood for anything now.

I miss you, but you don't seem like you wanted to talk.

I'll go cycling tomorrow.

Spend the entire day at the beach.

Bring sandwiches, maybe?

Or maybe fly a kite while I'm there.

Sounds like fun.

Gonna go.

Bye.

Stay with me

Or watch me bleed

I need you

Just to breathe

P.S: I won't give up on myself. Trust me on that.

Save Your Heart

This got me laughing for like, 5 minutes? Maybe more.

Priceless expressions, seriously.

I don't know why I never noticed this back then.

Sucha long ago picture.

Really made my day though.

I miss school.

No, I miss school with W35F.

It's the only class that feels like home to me.

I want a cat.

I am jealous of Liyana's Boboy.

If I had a cat, I'll talk to it all day for the rest of this hols.

It'll be my best friend at home.

HAHAHA.

I had a new idea for a story while I was showering this morning.

& I haven't even written the storyline down in case I forgot.

I'll work on it this holidays so I won't be bored.

I should be excited, but I'm not.

Hmmm~

I shall go now.

Maybe a movie marathon tonight.

Oh gosh, I forgot it's Friday.

Whaaaaat the helllllll???

So faaaaaaassssssssttttt?????

&, I realized today that he was right.

Try to please everyone, and you'll please no one.

Save your heart

For someone that's worth dying for

Don't give it away

Torn apart

Never getting what you've been crying for

Its always the same

And you give

And they take

And its love that you want

But not love that you make

P.S: Stop lying to yourself. Time to wake up, and grow up. Suck it up and get over it.

Breathe

I'm finally home for good. Not going anywhere till next Tuesday=Gamelan training.

When I woke up today, I planned to go cycling. But The Mummy Returns went on HBO so I watched. Then ate. Then went online till now, it's 5.54=too late to go cycling. Sighh.

I knew it would suck to be home and have nothing to do. It did. I have to put up with the two maids, one naggy, the other lazy and watches porn secretly in the room. The good thing about being home is playing with my youngest sister and watching her grow up. She knows more words than the last time I talked to her. She is smarter than the last time I thought she was smart. & she made me realize how much I've missed ever since I started poly.

I remember when she was a baby. I didn't like her. I didn't like the fact that all the attention would soon go to her. I didn't like it that everything in the house changed. I hate change. But as she grew, I realized that her very presence made our family closer. So I promised myself that I wanted to be there for her in her growing years, to watch her grow. But I wasn't. I was too caught up with my life to care.

This holidays would be the chance to catch up with what I lost. & I hope it does.

When I got home yesterday, the way she hugged me and didn't want to let go, it made me realize so many things. What I failed to be. A good sister.

God, why am I crying.

Anyway, enough of the emoshit. I enjoyed the past few days with the people of my heart. There were too much smiles, laughters and jokes until I feel pain in my side after that. But it's still worth it. This is the people I've always missed. They're still the same people I love, and will always love. You guys are just too awesome! Much loves. :)

OMG, I miss my Canon. I've been feeling the emptiness since Monday, when I saw Syai's camera and when everyone kept asking where's my camera. The feeling is different from when I don't have my camera with me because I know it's at home. This one, my camera is in the "hospital", costing my parents a pretty $167. Cheaper than MY hospital bills, at least. Tuh. Empat ratus D, aku rindu kau! :(

I'm going to come up with a plan later. There's no way I'm going to spend the rest of the holidays in front of my laptop. I need to do something meaningful. Nights will of course consist of movies. Heh. Got loads in my hard disk. Been watching Glee with my tikus lately. A few more episodes to go and I'm done with Season 1. But will watch the White Castle thingy soon, Harold and Kumar is it? Forgot which I'm supposed to watch first. Uh-oh. Haha.

Hopefully, the pain will leave me alone. It's the chest pain that bothers me now. Sighh, when will this ever end?

Stay strong, Faz. :)

She wears G-string, I wear...... (forgot!)

HAHAHA.

Music starts playin’ like the end of a sad movie

It’s the kinda ending you don’t really wanna see

Cause it’s tragedy and it’ll only bring you down

Now I don’t know what to be without you around

P/S: I wanna watch Dear John, dammit. & Valentine's Day.

Empty

I think today is simply awesome! Heh. Outing with Miss Yow to the Canon Centre or whatever you call it, to send my dearest 400D for repair. & so, begins my one or two weeks separation from my first love. My heart broke 28987429768273482 times, okay! My first camera, so loyal, never failed to make me proud of the pictures I take, is now at the hospital. Orang die sakit, camera pon ikot sakit. Apalah nasib gua?

Anyway, after that, we headed off to lunch at Singapore Flyer. Ended up looking around Marina Square for any jobs available. Got lost a little while trying to look for the Millenia Walk. Finally, we headed down to POPEYES for lunch. See that picture up there. That's MINE. ALONE. ALONE tau!! Hahaha. I think we sat there for two hours? Till who else but the guy-who-just-got-that-photographer-job came along. Rafi. Yeaaaaah, I'm jealous of his job, I really am. Shall not talk about that.

So after Popeyes, we went to Esplanade to look at PopcornPop. On the way, I saw the VP of MCG (whatshisnameagain?) and Ruuuuuuuuuudy Faaaaaaaaaarhan. Yessssss, that boy saw me but didn't smile. Nat didn't even look at him. HAHAHAAHAHA. She said if she did, she would give him the finger. Hahahaha. After PCP, went to MPH at Raffles City and she bought two books cause there's a sale there! I didn't have enough moolahs, :(

I think that overall, my date with Natasha today is damn awesome. Like, 6 hours++ straight with her. All the way till Paris. Awwwwwwwwwwsome, man, awwwwwwwwwwsome.

This picture up there, is the sweetest thing my mother has ever done. On Thursday, me and my dad went to the driving centre down at Kampung Ubi, if I'm not wrong, to register for my license. & when we got back, I saw this two cupcakes on the dining table. I was.... shocked/surprised/touched/happygilerrr. My mum had cupcake orders and she had spare cupcakes so she did those words. I was like, what the helll???? I couldn't believe my eyes, seriously.

So I trained down to Chinese Garden this morning, before my date with Nat, to meet this dear boy. It was a nice morning, pretty windy. We sat at the highest storey of the Pagoda. & I stole the chance to take a picture of the man whose name is on that Double Chocolate cupcake. &! He was damn crazy this morning, I'm not sure why. He did really stupid stuff, my goodness. Like, belly dancing and catwalking. I laughed like..... You get the idea. But he made my morning so awesome. :)

Both of them made my day so awesome la, seriously. Thanks, guys! :D

Maybe we're trying

Trying too hard

Maybe we're torn apart

Maybe the timing

Is beating our hearts

We're empty

Gift Of A Friend

I'm super bored, but I'm going off soon to cycle to Natasha's house, which I haven't done since so looong, and since she's not moving, I want to do it as often as I can to appreciate the fact that she's so nearby. :)

I was so bored just now I decided to read quotes again. And I found some nice ones about friends. Enjoy, 'cause I enjoyed. :)

No person is your friend who demands your silence, or denies your right to grow.

Each friend represents a world in us, a world possibly not born until they arrive, and it is only by this meeting that a new world is born.

True friendship consists not in the multitude of friends, but in their worth and value.

Few friendships would survive if each one knew what his friend says of him behind his back.

Friendship is born at that moment when one person says to another: "What! You, too? Thought I was the only one."

(OMG. I smell Tom Yam. I think my mum's cooking Tom Yam tonight. Oh. It's our neighbour. Sharks. Pfft.)

Truth springs from argument amongst friends. (Man, is this so true or what.)

A faithful friend is a strong defense: and he that hath found such an one hath found a treasure.

When a friend is in trouble, don't annoy him by asking if there is anything you can do. Think up something appropriate and do it.

Friendship with oneself is all important because without it one cannot be friends with anybody else in the world.

Friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. Love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing. (Absolutely love this one.)

The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. (Love this one as well!!)

The loneliest woman in the world is a woman without a close woman friend. (Awww...)

Business, you know, may bring money, but friendship hardly ever does.

It's the friends you can call up at 4 a.m. that matter.

In the end, we will remember not the words of our enemies, but the silence of our friends.

Depth of friendship does not depend on length of acquaintance.

It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. (OMG, reminds me of the extinguisher thing at the Airshow. Natashaaaaaa!!!)

Friendship is a sheltering tree.

Yes'm, old friends is always best, 'less you can catch a new one that's fit to make an old one out of.

This is my beloved and this is my friend.

A friend is one of the nicest things you can have, and one of the best things you can be. (:D)

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.

Only your real friends will tell you when your face is dirty.

The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.

A good friend is cheaper than therapy. (I like this one! I really like this one! HAHA!)

Friends are kisses blown to us by angels.

A real friend is someone who would feel loss if you jumped on a train, or in front of one.

The bird a nest, the spider a web, man friendship.

A true friend reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world.

A friend can tell you things you don't want to tell yourself.

If you're alone, I'll be your shadow. If you want to cry, I'll be your shoulder. If you want a hug, I'll be your pillow. If you need to be happy, I'll be your smile. But anytime you need a friend, I'll just be me.

A friend accepts us as we are yet helps us to be what we should.

Probably no man ever had a friend that he did not dislike a little.

I value the friend who for me finds time on his calendar, but I cherish the friend who for me does not consult his calendar.

If it's very painful for you to criticize your friends - you're safe in doing it. But if you take the slightest pleasure in it, that's the time to hold your tongue. (True!)

The best way to mend a broken heart is time and girlfriends. (:D)

Friendship needs no words - it is solitude delivered from the anguish of loneliness.

In my friend, I find a second self.

Alright, that's enough for now. Quotes are fun, kay. Me likes. Alrighty then, shall depart for Paris Drive...Sharks, I don't know! Haha, shall take note later. :p

The world comes to life

& everything's alright

From beginning to end

When you have a friend by your side

That helps you to find

The beauty of all

When you'll open your heart and believe in

The gift of a friend

I'm so tired.

The pain is back, again.

Guess what my mum said was right.

The pain comes during my period because the cyst formed.

As much as I hate to admit it, she really is right.

God, when will this ever end?

Stay optimistic, Faz. :)

This week and next week is damn packed.

When will I ever have time to myself?

If it's not family, it's G.

If it's not G, it's family.

Or else, it's my mum's business.

Speaking of that, I have to upload pictures to Multiply.

Mum's and GNK's.

Bummer.

Bye.

Utopia

I think that today is the best day of the entire weekend. Dad paid for the two bracelets I wanted at Cik Jannah's shop at Jurong West. Heh. The best part? One of them is made by Habib Ali himself. Cool perrrr. Haha. It's damn nice la. There's this kinda like arabic words on it, and Cik Jannah said there is a meaning to them but the words are not from the Quran so it's okay if you wanna go in the toilet with it but it's better not to. Haaaaa~~ Happy gilerrr that I have sucha thing in my hands. :D:D:D:D

I'm turning so ustazah-ish lately. Gawwwwdddd. But it's a good thing. :)

Umi Aisyah will probably come down to Singapore around the middle or end of this year. I don't know why I kind of can't wait. Somehow, just seeing her makes you feel calm and I like to watch her. I don't know why, it's kind of...fascinating. Haha. Maybe it's cause they say she's a "Wali Allah". Hmm. Omg, I actually did a research on Wali Allah. Interesting. Hmm.... Read up if you want here. :)

The pain is back, by the way. But I won't shed a single tear, trust me on that. :)

I'm searching for answers, not given for free

You're hurting inside, is there life within me?
You're holding my hand but you don't understand
So you're taking the road all alone in the end

Crawl

I think that it's unfair that Ahmad shared his side of our love story but I didn't. So I'm gonna share my side of the story from day 1 since he wanted to know so badly. Hahaha.

It's true that we've had many ups and downs the past 6 months. & I think I'm the one who gave him the most shit and yet, he puts up with it with so much patience and maturity. I think that my time with him has made me a better person than I was before. I've learnt so much from him and I'm really thankful that I have him.

It has been a long journey since the day we first met. Sooo, bear with me. :)

I didn't really notice you when I first entered W35F. Ouch, I know, sorry. Haha. We didn't really talk much, you gave me the impression that you were a very shy guy. Being very quiet in class and all. But that was fine with me. So this continued until E-learning week. Somehow, chatting on MSN with you, and mass convo-ing with the rest of the peeps, and you teasing me, made me have that teeny weeny itsy bitsy crush on you. I'm not sure how it happened, but it happened pretty fast, so fast that whenever I get an MSN alert from you, my heart races crazily. Even the rest of the melayus teased us, and crazily, madly, weirdly enough, I sorta liked it. Haha, okay shut up. E-learning was over too soon, and yes, we went back to the way we were before. I actually found myself missing the E-learning days because in school, on MSN, I didn't really know what to say to you, and you didn't seem to respond too well either. It was awkward.

6th July was the day we all returned to school. The day after, Zul and Syai placed on my MSN note: 'Ahmad, oh i miss you'. -.- _l_ Thanks ah, guys. I knew you saw it, my sister saw it too. She thought I really wrote that, and she thought I was crazy. Haha. I panicked. Like, crazy panic. So yeah. & 8th July, was the day Mirah, Sarah and me confessed to each other on who we had a crush on in class. I told them I didn't want to take it seriously, that it's just a crush, and nothing would come out of it. Then the next day, Sarah and me read a post on your blog about how you were still trying to get over your ex. I knew then that I really didn't have a chance so I decided to forget about it.

Unfortunately, I found myself falling deeper. Whenever we were not in the same team, I would find myself watching you, what you were doing and stuff. Sarah even caught me watching you secretly. When you and I do end up in the same team, I tried not to watch you, tried to act casual, tried to be myself. But everyday, you come and go, nothing was going to make us more than friends so I didn't hope for anything. It's just a crush. I'll get over it.

If I’m not mistaken, it was on the 27th of July that our darling, dearest, wonderful Syaiful Amiril bin Haj Mohamad asked me a question I least expected him to ask, 'Kalau dalam dunia ni, takde laki lain except for ahmud and zul, yang mane kau pilih?' It took me by surprise. Well, actually, I laughed. HAHA. Without even thinking about it, I answered, 'Ahmad.' He asked why. So I said it's because you're quiet, you're not like other guys I know, you go for Friday prayers... to which Syai argued that who knows, you went somewhere else, nak step gi solat je. I went, 'Whatever. & he doesn't smoke.' Syai argued again that maybe you do smoke but just didn't show it. Whatever, I know.

So after playing blind mice after school the day before Sarah's birthday, you walked home with us for the first time. Mirah and me walked in front while you walked behind us with Zul, Azhar and Syai. I was just talking with Mirah when suddenly, our dearest Syai yelled,

"SITI, SITI !! TENGOK ! AHMAD ROKOK !!"

Honestly, the first thought in my mind was, SHIT, fuck you, Syai. You were laughing, and you handed the cig back to Syai, and Syai was bloody excited and he even pointed at the cig. Then, he went, "I'll ask you that question again tonight, Siti. *kening naik-naik*" IN FRONT OF YOU! So that night, Syai interrogated me further. 'How do you feel now that you know Ahmad smokes?' & he figured out on his own that I liked you. Tsk.

It was on Sarah's birthday that you first sent me your lame, lame, lame text message. 'Hi guys, Ahmad here. I don't think you have my number so here it is. (insertsmileyfacehere)'. I knew it was Syai's idea because before that, he asked me if I wanted a surprise that night. & obviously you were that surprise. I was angry, mad, furious. I didn't like it that Syai forced you to do it. I didn't want you to do something you didn't want to do. I asked Sarah if she received a message from you and she said she didn’t. Too obvious already. So I calmed down, and realised that it wasn’t your fault.

The next day, you texted me. The day after, you texted again. And again, and again, and again. With each conversation we had, I fell deeper for you and I knew I couldn’t run away from my feelings. Each time you texted, without me even prompting you, my hopes rise a little more higher. Syai made it even more obvious with his constant interrogation. I even got scolded by him. Tsk.

& so, 7th August 2009 (070809, nice number, eh?), the start of something new.

(Goddammit, what a freaking long post.)

Well, I have SYAIFUL AMIRIL BIN HAJ MOHAMAD & MAISARAH BTE KAMAL to thank for all this. Syai, it's true: tak sia-sia kene campak botol. ;)

But Msarah! Walao eh you. I still can't get over the fact that you said: 'ahmud, she really likes you. don't break her heart, kay?' Whaaaaaat the hellllll were you thinking? Okay la, it's not your fault. You were clueless. Even I laughed when I read the convo; the way you panicked was so cute. But it shows you care, so... thank you for making the confession for me. *winkwink*

Now, I'm done. I'm surprised I still remember the details so clearly. Macam baru semalam je orang tu kene marah. Haha.

I think this is enough for today. Hope YOU like it. Since you wanted to know so much. I think everyone knew that somehow, we would end up together. & Syai decided to make it happen. May Allah bless that guy.

&. The past week has been awesome. 8 Feb to 12 Feb. Even though it was UT week. I even met your nenek for the first time. Heh. Beat that, baby!

If we crawl

Till we can walk again

Then we'll run

Until we're strong enough to jump

Then we'll fly

Until there is no wind

So let's crawl, crawl, crawl

Back to love, yeah

Back to love, yeah

Nobody Knows

I couldn't stop staring at it when I got home. It even made me cry, and I couldn't stop till my maid told me to solat maghrib before it was over. I don't know why, but it means a lot to me right now. I really don't know why.

I dreamt of my grandmother last night.

& today, my boyfriend's grandmother gave me the above.

Words cannot even describe how I feel right now.

& I don't know, maybe that dream meant something, so I decided to join my maid when she bace Surah Yassin (sp?). Soooo, my heart kinda feels at ease right now 'cause it's been a while since I read Yassin for my grandma. I hope she comes in my dreams again soon. I miss her, even though I can hardly remember my time with her.

It makes me appreciate what I have right now. It makes me thankful to have what I already have. I wouldn't ask for more, I wouldn't ask for less. I'm just fine with where I am now.

My maid told me about what her friend said to her:

"Kita minta pada Allah setangkai bunga segar dan indah. Namun diberiNya cactus berduri. Kemudian kita minta pada Allah binatang mungil dan cantik. DiberiNya ulat berbulu.

Kita sedih. Kita protes. Kita kecewa.

Adilkah ni?

Namun kemudian, cactus itu tumbuh dan berbunga indah banget sekali. Dan ulat itu pun berubah menjadi kupu-kupu yang teramat cantik.

SUBHANALLAH..! Itulah jalan Allah, indah pada waktunya. Allah tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan, tetapi Allah memberi apa yang kita perlukan.

Semoga kita termasuk golongan orang-orang yang bersyukur atas segala ni'mat yang Allah berikan. Amin."

- Wariq

I am speechless.

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad

And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had

And I'm missin' you

And nobody knows it but me

I Will Be

So. My dearest Ahmad surprised me this morning by msging my own address to me and that he was waiting at 8.30 plus in the morning at the block opposite mine. I wasn't really that surprised that he came, but I was surprised that he knew my address. & the fact that I don't remember telling him. Sigh. But anyway, at 9 plus, I met him at 537 and off we went for breakfast at Mac's.

After breakfast, I realised that my Broadband Mobile wasn't in my bag, so we went back to my house to get it. And now, he officially knows where I live. Hahah. After that, headed down to Orchard Central Spinelli to study. Well, I did. He FB-ed and watched The Dudesons on YT. Hahah, never mind.

At about 1 plus, we went to the masjid next to Paragon (Al-Falah, issit? [sp?]) for Zohor. Yesss, I went for prayers with my boyfriend. First time ever that this happened. He's turning me into a saint. No, scratch that. He's turning me into an USTAZAH. -;- Pffffft. Maybe soon you'll find me wearing tudung for the rest of my life. Which isn't a bad thing but I'm not ready to commit to that yet. Ah, well.

After Zohor, we went to Takashimaya to walk around, since he wanted to "walk around". Went to Kinokuniya and looked at scores. He found Lamb Of God scores. Tskk, hahah. Spent some time there, and then to Art Friend. They still have the hearts styrofoam thing (thank God!) that I wanted to buy for Mum's cupcake tier deco. Didn't buy, didn't have enough $. But it's good that they still have it. Considering how I only knew of its existence back in 2007.

We headed for Woodlands after that 'cause Ahmad had to pay his fines or something, if I'm not mistaken. It was sucha hot day, seriously. I was sweating like mad. After that, lunched at Causeway. Wooooo, my favourite part. I had this Seafood Tom Yam Bee Hoon, and heck, when I got it, I thought it was a lot. I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it. But guess what?? I DID FINISH IT! Ask Ahmad. I was so proud of myself. Hahaha. & guess what? I'm hungry again. We ate at around 4.30 plus, and it's 8.55 now. Hahahahaha. My stomach is weird these days.

Anyway, we had nothing to do after lunch, so we walked around Causeway and ended up at Courts. Looking at EVERY sections. Appliances, Fridge, Beds, Electronics etc. Ahmad followed me around and pulled me away from the stuff whenever I get too close just because he was afraid we'll get approached by the salesguy cause I look like a potential buyer. -.-

& we shall end with the sunset today. It was gorgeous. Simply. Gorgeous. Too. Breathtaking. & my heart broke (too many times already) when I remembered that my Canon 400D.... is spoilt. T.T

I thought that I had everything

I didn't know what life could bring

But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

Right Here, Right Now

I know it’s only been half a year, but it has been a really beautiful period for me. Thank you for putting up with all the shit I keep giving you, thank you for being ever so patient with me, thank you for always being there for me, thank you for making me believe in myself again, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. And lastly, thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Happy number six, baby!

Right here, right now

I'm looking at you & my heart loves the view

Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow

That tomorrow can wait, some other day to be

But right now there's you and me

P.S: & Syaiful Amiril Bin Haj Mohamad, thank you for remembering our monthsary. Our happiness right now, is all thanks to you. :) I really hope you'll find your true love soon. [Ahmad bilang aku. Heh.]

AIRSHOWWWWW!!!!!!!

Never had so much fun in my life till today. It's like, going to a big event with your best friend, and not with your family. It feels so... grown-up. Even though we didn't really act like one. HAHA. But heck, who cares? We had loads of fun. And from the pictures itself, I looked very happy. No, WE looked very happy. It's like, after what, months since we last had a good outing together, we FINALLY had one. After all the shit we went through that concerned family, school and friends, we had one happy, enjoyable, hot day to ourselves. And when I say hot, it's really hot, as in, not the weather. Heh. But the over-excited one wasn't me though. Haha. I got the videos of her getting all excited about the angmohs, and after the pictures with them, how red her face was. Hahahahahahaha. We did a lot of jump shots. & a group of teenagers stole my idea when I suggested jump shot as they were passing by. Walao, no originality sia. Copyrighted tau. Gawddd. Oh yeah, not forgetting the part in the Exhibition Hall when someone went smack into a pillar with an extinguisher. -;-

The aerial display disappointed me a little. The first time I went, there were so many stunts. There was even a V-Day dedication to the couples and whatever. The planes did a heart-shaped smoke trail or whatever you call it. I liked that. But then, this time, it was like, one plane pass by, zoom here there up down left right twist twist, then dah. It's like, just one by one fly here there, then dah. No like, four at one go, fly upwards with the smoke trail thing. No super cool stunts like making shapes or whatever. Out of ten, I'll rate them four. Seriously, the 2008 aerial display was way better.

Nevertheless, I had lotsa fun today. Especially the jumping shots. It was crazy. The not so fun part is my hair that keeps flying all over the place because the wind went crazy on us.

I'm not sure why I don't really feel that tired. Maybe because tomorrow is a special day. But I have to tag along with Sisto to OC for her tuition with Rafi and I will have to squeeze in revision time for Maths. Still, tomorrow is a special day. Too bad I have a cough. Eating my dearest Strawberry Cheese Tart won't make it better, so sad. But! Tomorrow is still a special day...

OHH! My phone just reminded me about tomorrow. "6th Month in 10 minutes". Hahahaha, I love my phone. Plus, it played Utopia as the ringtone. Heh, heh, heh.

I'm gonna go do my mum's stuff while waiting for my midnight caller. Weeeee~~~

According To You

I still feel high, but not so high like yesterday. Mirah said it could be because of my medicine. HAHA. No, it's not, I just feel happy lately. 'Cause something someone said made me realize a lot of things. I shall not talk about it, yeah, but I'll post stuffs I found while I was dead bored just now. Tsk.

(& the title for this post, is a song I happened to stumble upon. Me likes. Heh.)

I like this one! It's so cute! Haha.

Lagi satu, lagi satu!!

Cute peeee.

It's like, I went awwwwwwwww.

Can't help it. I think I'm going crazy with all these love websites stuff that I keep reading.

I ain't stopping though. HAH.

Lovely entertainment.

Gawd, my throat still hurts.

These past few days have been very..... romantic.

Azhar just added a little humour to it.

I'm loving the last week of school!!

& Tumblr is lovely too!!

Airshoooowwwwwwwwww!!

&

Sundaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!

Wait, there's UT to study for. Bummer.

At least UT isn't during Ramadhan.

:)

But according to him

I'm beautiful

Incredible

He can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny

Irresistible

Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite

I don't feel like stopping it

So, baby, tell me what I got to lose

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you.

I was high today, not sure why.

Then something happened that made me emo again.

Like last night.

Seems like I can never be happy without having the pain to ruin it for me.

Hubbi, will you just get well faster?

I want my mother back.

I'm sorry this is selfish, but I want her to be the last person I see before I go to sleep.

It's a daughter thing.

A sick daughter thing.

Read this:

I went awwwwww.

I was about to love today but too bad.

At least Nat came to my rescue and made me laugh my ass off in class about balls and polaroids.

Love that girlie.

Saturday & the great escape.

& not forgetting, Sunday.

Heeeee~~