Titanium

Assalamualaikum!

I'm currently not in the best of health. I've been having a very bad headache, sometimes migraine, for almost a week now, and it's because it's the time of the month.

I swear, it's killing me. Sigh.

Finally completed my practicum folder. :3

A whole load off my shoulder now. So what comes next would be my load of housework waiting for me this weekend. Hahahaha. Seriously, now I feel like a working mum; come home from work to do housework and teach my "kid" her reading.

This could probably really be me in the future. ;p

Well, at least I get a first glance at it in advance. It's tiring!!!!!!!!!!! :( But then again, when you're a real mom and all that mother instincts kick in, tired would not be the first thing in your list. How truly great mothers are. :)

My work for curriculum and learning centres planning are not even half done. Got the whole of next week and the following week free to finish it all up. Hopefully I can do it. Kind of excited to take the K2s next year. :D

Keeping it short and sweet. Headache refuses to go away. Waiting for my sis to bring home my 100 Plus drink. :3

Salam, and may ya'll be in the best of health! :3

You shout it loud

But I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud

Not saying much

I'm criticised

But all your bullets ricochet

You shoot me down

But I get up

I miss you so much it hurts.

I don't know how I get through the days nowadays.

Without getting to meet you.

The days drag on, till I lose count.

And I wonder when it is that I'll get to see you again.
When all I can do is pray for your safety.
While you're out there facing dangers I cannot imagine.
I sit here with a white screen.
Doing my curriculum, and my practicum folder.
But all I'm thinking about is how much I really miss you.

Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale

Because the cramps are killing me.

And Shyme's soft fur warms me up in this cold weather.

You can always count on her to give you a cheer up when you need it.

Even if I don't get to keep Lumos, I want Shyme for the rest of my life.

:3

Uptown Girl

This guy here surprised me when he paid for the RWS membership card, which was worth $150, FOR ME!

He said I come here more often than he does so I could use the benefits.

My heart just, cair rabak because it's so sweet of him.

:3

He was saying that he looks more muscular now.

Yep, I agree. *hearts rolling outta may eyes*

Yay to fisheye lens!

Things are pretty much going tough for me right now.  But I'm thankful to have someone like him by my side, to remind me to stay strong, who knows just what to do to make me forget everything else and simply live for the moment.

Feeling pretty happy about the time spent with him. The jokes and laughter, and the annoying faces he always makes when we're taking selfies.

I love today. It's just what I needed to forget everything else, just temporarily. :)

Uptown girl

You know I can't afford to buy her pearls

But maybe someday when my ship comes in

She'll understand what kind of guy I've been

And then I'll win

I need to hear both sides of the story first.

But I can't help it.

I can't take it happening for the second time.

No, I just can't.

Ya Allah, give me strength.

Give my family strength.

Games and food feast!

The one I'm hugging, I call him Taeyang.

OMG SO CUTE PLS!

My principal said he looks like a chipmunk though.

HAHA.

*melts*

Sweet Nathania. :3

(Siddique and Grace masok frame je....hahaha.)

Assalamualaikum! It is officially the start of the school holidays! I bade farewell to the above children yesterday, some of whom I may not get to see again next year because they're moving back to their countries. :(

It was also sad to see the K2s go. Akil even gave me this!

I felt so touched, and close to tears. This boy is very sweet, and he has a very sweet smile too. Gah, gonna miss these kids so bad. :(

And so, I have about 1 and a 1/2 month more to go till the course ends. Currently finishing the remains of my practicum folder so that I can submit it by the end of next week. :B

Until my next post. And I should also mention that I'm already working on a project with my sis. Gonna visit a few places next weekend to get our resources. Bismillah, anything for my future.

Salam, and Fazzoutzz! :3

When I Look To The Sky

Because surprises have always been part of the package.

But he wasn't all that surprised.

He said he expected it.

Gotta work harder. *muka determined*

He never fails to cheer me up no matter what I'm feeling.

I will miss him next year.

Assalamualaikum! I'm still feeling tired and I don't even know why. Rushing out the remaining components of my practicum folder. Just wanna get it over and done with as soon as possible. Thought I could use a break and just update darlin', ol', faithful blog. :3

The past week has been a breeze, due to my not being at work for 2 days because of the field visits that are part of the practicum requirement. So it meant not being able to meet my babies for 2 days, and in total if you include the Deepavali holidays, it would be 5 days since I met them. T.T

But anyway, yesterday was terrible because of a complaint from a parent that involved me and JL, and put our abilities into question. I was terrified, but JL somehow managed to handle the situation, even though I don't quite agree with her choice of words. Don't wanna talk about it.

But while I was interrogating the child outside the music room, where the rest of the children were actually watching Tom and Jerry on the TV, suddenly they shouted, followed by a shout from JL. And then all of them came running out of the room. I was overwhelmed because Wayn, Nathania, Jessica and Grace came to hug me at the same time and I got thrown backwards. Luckily I was sitting on the gym mattress. I was so blur as to why they all ran out.

Guess why?

There was a flying cockroach that appeared out of nowhere. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

So funny la these kids. And JL.

Anyway, I've been giving some thoughts on a small project that I intend to turn into a small business. I've been wanting to start a little business of my own, initially being selling shawls and all that. But I scraped the idea because there's so much competition out there and I just didn't feel like going up for it. Then I considered picking up sewing. My mum's friend offered to teach me, but I just don't have the sewing machine. So I told her I'll start learning once my course ends. Then, when I saw someone crocheting a purse on the train, I suddenly had the interest too. Macam banyak je nak belajar. I want to pick up knitting too, 'cause my mum has the needles and yarn. She used to knit, when she was pregnant with me, she knitted a blouse for me, but it turned out too small for me. :O And I wanna learn to play the ukulele too! And continue my piano too! :(

See my dilemma! I may be young, and there's so much I want to learn, but I just don't seem to have the time for the things I want to learn. But then again, it's all about time management, right?

"Bak peribahasa, di mana ada jalan, kat situ kita jalan!"

"Oi kau perosak bahasa kau tau? Mana ada peribahasa macam tu?"

Hahahahahahahahaha! Okay, serious. I thought I'd just start with knitting or crocheting first. Just the basics first till I get the hang of it. I was also thinking of making my own headbands too, since I'm like in love with that kind of hijab style.

Mum's been pushing me to run my own business just as a side income. She said she could help me handle the customers and all that. I've just been considering it, but it definitely wouldn't be apparels. :) We'll just see how it goes. Priority is getting the course over and done with. :B

Kita yang usahakan, Allah yang tentukan. :)

I guess I'll slowly pick up the skills as I go along. I always had this picture in my mind of me sitting in a rocking chair (or something like that, haha), pregnant and knitting stuff for my kids. Okay la, kinda too soon for that, but I can just see myself doing stuff like that. 'cause I always told myself that I need to get all these kinds of valuable skills once I'm married. It will make everything easier.

For example, husband seluar terkoyak... Just pick up the needle and sew. Nak alas meja, tak payah beli, pick up the needle and knit. Nak shawl? Beli kain je, jahit kat tepi. 

:D

Now, we reach the more solemn topic. Today marks the third year since my aunt's demise. Her battle with cancer, ended on this very day and I remember it all too well. Rushing down to KK Hospital from RP (partial, duh), hugging her so tightly when I saw her still alive, my sis feeling upset because my aunt's condition just had to worsen on her birthday, bidding her farewell for the last time without even realising it, falling asleep in tears and waking up with news that she passed on just after midnight.

It still hurts sometimes whenever I remember her. In my prayers, in my journeys around the island, or just at random times. Wishing that she got the chance to know that I finally became a teacher, finally achieved my dreams. Because I knew she always believed in education. She never got the chances I wish she got but I know somewhere, she's watching. :)

I miss her so much. But at least now, she's out of her misery. But her presence will always be missed. :'(

I guess this is all. Dah emo ni. Hais. One more month! Yay, dapat bonus in December, InsyaAllah! Boleh beli camera baru! Hee. Yay, agaknye dapat K2 jugak next year. Yay, yay, yay!

Till my next post! Salam!

When I look to the sky

Something tells me you're here with me

And you make everything alright

And when I feel like I'm lost

Something tells me you're here with me

And I can always find my way when you are here

Lego House

Assalamualaikum, semua!

Faz is finally feeling happy and free, now that practicum and appraisal are over! Alhamdulillah, both went well. And yesterday, the school celebrated Deepavali/Diwali and my dearest babies got the chance to make their very own Rangoli (not the above picture though) because Bharathi's mommy was so sweet to draw up A4 size papers of a peacock so that the children can put liquid glue and sprinkle coloured rice over it, just like the actual Rangoli. I didn't have the time to take any pictures of the children in action because I was busy helping them squeeze out the glue. I'm pretty sure the children had fun, and I sure did enjoy myself too. Fashion shows, mass Indian dance and Rangoli making, I learnt more about our fellow Indian friends. Honestly, everyday I learn something from the people and children around me. :)

So we had a valuable teachable moment today when we met for an impromptu date after what feels like donkey years. We went around Plaza Singapura, from Uniqlo to find his black shirt for the GNK show this Tuesday, to Cotton On Kids to find Farah's belt, to Spotlight to find the cloth for the cats' new DIY scratching post, to Daiso to look for nothing in particular, to endless walking around, to finally buying Resident Evil 6, to endless jokes and laughter, to just really appreciating and enjoying each other's company. I wanted to watch a movie, badly wanted to watch Thor 2 so I could secretly ogle at Chris Hemsworth's macho-ness (heh!) but he said he had ngaji tonight. So we scraped that idea and just walked around.

Then, when I just about reached my house, he texted and said there was no ngaji today. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry because he said his ngaji place was dark and empty.

It's so funny how selengeh this whole moment was. We could have had more time together had he double checked but, hahahahaha.

I wasn't mad or whatever la. I was able to meet him at least, and that was enough. And the topics we talked about are still echoing in my head and making me smile.

This sweet guy.

This funny man.

If I had to give advice to ladies out there who are looking for their life partners, I'd say find someone who can make you laugh, who knows how to cheer you up when you're down and knows what to say to make you crack just a simple smile. Because laughter is one of the best medicine. :)

And so, our teachable moment is: Always double check, guarantee confirm plus chop, something before you go ahead and do it, whatever it is. :D *rolling on the floor laughing at Ahmad*

The things he does that can just make me laugh. But well, I've done things that embarrassed me too so, yeah. :B

Still, I can't contain the love I feel for this guy who has, over time, made me realise how so very important he is to me. Sometimes I can't believe how so very lucky I am, to the point I get super emotional. :') 

Thank you for everything, dearest. :3

One more week till my practicum period is ovaaahhhh!

Alhamdulillah, in less than 2 months' time, I'll be completing the diploma. And InsyaAllah, I'll continue on to take a degree next year. 

Until here, folks. Till my next post, and till then, may you guys always be in the best of health. Amin. :3

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love

I'll pick you up when you're getting down

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind

I'll do it all for you in time

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now, now