Always.

<3

My fever has finally gone down.

But the body aches have not.

Neither have the headaches and occasional migraine.

I miss this guy.

K bye.

I couldn't agree more.

Today wasn't enough.

Nothing seems to be enough.

I miss everything about you.

Soaking in all of you in one day isn't enough.

I miss you.

I was having very bad cramp pains since yesterday. Still had the pain this morning so I skipped school. It was unbearable. Drifted in and out of sleep until I received a message from my favourite boy. He sent me the picture above and I love it. This is what he does at work. Hahaha. Nope, this is not what he is supposed to do. He just has a lot of free time at work, that's all. When I saw the date, it took me a moment to realize that we've really been together for 2 years. Sometimes, it still feels like a dream. This guy is just too good to be true. :3

Now, I'm off to start doing FYP again. Nice to be home, actually. For once, because my sis also skipped school. ;p

Loving You Tonight

I was finally able to meet this cute boy on Saturday. Although the last time we met was for a brief few minutes on Wednesday, it felt like ages since I last saw him. Going to school alone was kind of miserable since I've been so used to him teasing me during the morning walks to school the last 4 semesters. So that Saturday, terubatlah rindu aku. :p

We ate at Burger King where I tasted fastfood bacon for the first time since I came back from Australia. He told me all about his internship, and I updated him on stuff happening in school. It was nothing much actually. Just that, school was never so boring. Goes to show how much of an entertainment he is. :p

After lunch, we walked around Plaza Singapura for a while. Covered most of the upper floors only. And throughout, we teased each other. I missed teasing him. Amazing how 3 days make a difference. I really obviously missed this guy. So, we were walking in and out of the shops on the topmost level when I discovered that one of the shops sold cameras. Holgas, Polaroid cameras, lomo cameras, and most definitely, Diana! It was a whole set. I was so excited! Hahaha. & then we started arguing because apparently, he'll be getting a lot of money the next few months.

1) $400 per month from his internship for 4 months.
2) Gamma Rays performances
3) Gamelan Asmaradana/Gamelan Express performances

While I have like, what? 1 performance coming up in November, and I don't even know if I'll get much. He has 2 GR performances coming up. Ugh.

& yes, at that point of time, I realized, he's going to be richer than me. & heck, I couldn't accept that. Hahaha! So he used this money thing to irritate the hell out of me the whole time we were on our way to Kerbau Road. Everyone in GSM welcomed him happily. Rehearsal that day was awesome. Why? Because I tried playing the Reong for Gambang Suling. I've always been playing the Pengecah with Mei Yin, so when Niky told me to play Reong, I kinda panicked. It always looked hard to me, even though I've always been fascinated by the sounds. So I tried. It was hard at first, but I think I'll get the hang of it over time. But it's really, really, really awesome.

After rehearsal, Kak Ros invited us to watch an open gamelan show at Esplanade. So we decided to go. And it was awesomeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!! The storyline was on Ramayana, about Sinta and Rama's love story or something like that, and Rhawana, the demon, kidnapped Sinta and stuff. We stayed for all three half-an-hour shows. Oh, and might I add, the Nasi Goreng Ikan Bilis at Makansutra is yummy, man! Omg, I just loooooooove ikan bilis. HAHA!

I was sad when the night ended. It meant he had to go. and it meant that I don't know for sure when I'll see him again. I admit that I've cried every night since school started. Not just every night, I'd cry even when I randomly think about him. I'd cry when I miss him. I'd cry in the mornings, on the way to Pasir Ris MRT, knowing he wouldn't be at Woodlands, waiting to walk to school with me. I'd cry when I read his messages. I'd cry when I look at his pictures in my phone.

But, ohwells. I'll get over it soon, I guess.

But now I know, what it means to truly, really love someone. So much that it hurts not to be near, hurts to miss them, hurts to cry. & when they're not around, you just don't know what to do.

I don't know what to do with myself, seriously.

I just want to be busy soon. ASAP. Because that was how I got through the 2 months he was away in Australia. Being busy helps. Very busy. FYP, please start soon. & the intensive GNK practices should start soon.

Okay, after much crying trying to type these out, though I do feel better now, I am hungry. So, I shall go unredden my eyes and get food from Art Bites next door. Craving for their spaghetti, yumm.


Take care, y'all. :D

And I'll say, hey

You'll say baby, how's your day

I'll say, crazy

But its all gonna be alright

You'll kiss my smile

I'll pull you closer

Spend awhile just gettin' to know ya

But its all gonna be alright

Loving you tonight

Ohh Ohh Yeaaah

Loving you tonight

Ohhh Ohh, Yeaahh

Last Kiss

Happy 26th monthsary, baby! :)

& I'll wait patiently for the day we can meet again. :3

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep

And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe

And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are

Hope it's nice where you are

I'd give anything to be here, right now.

School sucks.

The only thing that keeps me going is gamelan.

That's ALL.

:(

Bye.

Emo mode for the rest of the semester.

Sayang ♥♥♥

Headphones for his birthday present.

Happy Birthday, dearest boy of mine!!

:3

I'll see you when I see you. :)

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