Sumyar!

My sis said this looks like a family portrait. HAHA!

GNK = <3

Maisarah Kamal = <3

That botak guy was actually saying Ha'eh, nyiaaawwww.

HAHAHA!!!!

No comments. :p

Our names start with the same letter.

Or at least, the names that people call us by.

Farhana, Fazilah, Fazlun, Fazlina.

:D

Thank you everyone who took the time to come down for Sumyar. The past three months, I've been involved in performances by the professional Gamelan groups and I have to say, they are experiences that would only come once in a lifetime. I am grateful to have been given the opportunity to perform with professionals. & for those who came down, thank you so much!

I think I was too obvious during Srepeg Nem. My sis could tell that I was struggling with the gong. HAHA! Oh wells.

Kak Lynn denied the planned engagement. All Abang Nabil did was smile. Hahaha. But seriously seh, he changed a lot since the last time I saw him, which was in 2008, I think. Must be the NS thing. You're not a real man yet until you've served the nation. Good luck, boys. But anyway, I can't wait till she gets married!!! It's like, finally a cousin on mum's side getting married. Hahahaha!

& speaking of getting married, there's a pengantin portrait on FB. Go figure. HAHA!

I'm very happy with what I've achieved the past few months. I've learnt so much and enjoyed myself throughout. & like I told my sis, "When you play music, you're so focused on the music you're making that you actually leave all your troubles behind." I did. & I've never felt better.

& now, I have to start focusing back on reality. I'm considering using my pay to fix my piano. Wonder how much that'll cost. Hmm.

Nights, all!!

Walao, wrong day to run into an ex.

Hmm.

What do I do now, what do we do now?

Where are we standing now?

It feels like a whole load of weight off my shoulders right now. I spent nearly 2 months totally lost, unsure of what to do and how to react, replaying the words in my head, wanting to fight back, to defend myself. I spent hours sitting at my laptop, typing my feelings out on an email, trying to find the right words to say, hoping I wouldn't regret what I was going to do. After every prayer, I remained in the same position, asking Allah for directions, for some kind of sign to guide me to the right path. I spent hours crying because I was afraid, because I was scared, because I had no one to turn to, because everyone I turned to said the same thing, "Just leave it alone." I wasted so many tears because I really, really, really, really didn't know what to do. I'm crying so hard right now just thinking about what I went through just for one person. Yet, she had no idea.

Then, just about 30 minutes ago, I talked to the woman in the picture above. Honestly, I miss her. & I confided in her about everything that was bothering me the past 2 months. What she said in return was what I really needed to hear 2 months ago.

Whenever someone does bad things to us, no matter how bad it was, we should always try to forgive them, no matter how hard it may be to forgive them. Kerna Allah akan selalu maafkan kita bila kita minta maaf, walaupun kita slalu buat salah. It's human to make mistakes, and it's human to want forgiveness when we've done something wrong. What if one day, we've committed a sin, and Allah doesn't want to forgive us? That's why we should learn to forgive.

:(

I should have gone straight to her for advice 2 months ago. I was in constant confusion all this while. But now, I feel better. I've gone through a lot, and I've learnt from my mistakes. I lost something important to me, and I don't know if I'll ever get it back. But I've learnt a valuable lesson here and I'll always remember it. :)

Sumyar this weekend!

Honestly, I don't really feel appreciated.

I feel like bullshit these days.

& no one knows it.

Livin' the primary school days again. Played this the whole day. Heh.

Today, I flashed back to when we said three cheers for five years.

& I realized, yeah, you'll be much happier without me.

& though it hurts, I can do nothing but let it be.

Look how much things changed in just 2 years.

:(

Jangan Menyerah

I really miss this little girl. She grew up so much.

Me and Sisto were SOOOOO super duper shocked that he was the one getting married.

Laki bini steward and stewardess, ape macam?!

I really miss her and her brother.

I didn't get to take a picture with her bro because he kept wandering off.

& he told us he's in silat, she's in tarian.

Awww, my family is so into malay culture. HAHAH!

I was shocked at the quality of this on my laptop.

Never knew my Canon could still produce this kind of quality.

Sayaaaang Canon. :D:D

Been a while since I last updated, huh? Well, I wanted to update a few days back, but apparently, Blogger was down then. So I decided not to blog. But now, here I am! :D

Anyway, just a little information on the couple who just got married today. The guy, Abang Zul, is actually my mum's brother-in-law(ex)'s brother. In short, my uncle's brother. Well, when I was in lower primary, he taught me to memorize my times table. Back then, he tumpang at my house because my aunt was pregnant, so he stayed around to help take care of her while her husband's at work. So, back then, being the gatal me, I thought he was handsome. But really, when he was in his teens, he really was good-looking. Anyway, I only saw him once a year after that. So on every Raya, he'll have a new look. Once, he even had long hair and piercings. And I was already in secondary school then. So, a bit turned off. Haha. And I learnt that he was a little like a playboy. Everytime we see him, it will be with a different girl. So when we saw him today, we were glad that he switched back to schoolboy haircut. Hahaha! When we took the photo together, and he saw me, he was kinda surprised but he waved. Heh. Handsome guy on Mum's side married oledi. Now, waiting for Handsome Guy on Dad's side to get married: Abang Din!!

My Saturday was awesome. I missed them both. & they ajak us to go on a holiday with them. Heeee!!!!! June 22, must remember. His birthday, his birthday, his birthday!!! 13th September. Her birthday, her birthday, her birthday!!!

Okay, I shall head to sleep now. I had an awesome weekend. But lately, the chest pains are getting frequent. I have to keep my meds nearby wherever I go. Sigh. Thus, the reason for the title of this post. :)

Take care, ya'll. :)

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The Way You Are

I've been wanting to upload the above picture for ages but could never access my sis's iTouch. Then she transfered the pictures to my iPhone, so now's my chance! Hehehe, it became my FB profile picture too. :p I've never met anyone so patient with the way I play Gong. Suara Bali was a memorable experience, and till now, I still get the butterflies I felt in my stomach on the show days. :p I'm really looking forward to the next Singamurti show. :)

You, the only boy that I need.

The only one that I dream about endlessly.

I love the way you are

I love the way you are

I love the way

I love the way

I love the way you are

People will always want to bring you down.

The most important thing is to get back up to your feet and stand up for what you believe in.

Let them say whatever they want to say.

'Cause you know yourself better than they do.

:)

We've come too far to bring each other down.

I believe we can find a way around this.

Why let unhappiness interfere with your passion?

That's such a waste.

Sigh.

We'll work it out somehow.