No one else can claim my heart the way you have.

& if ever anyone were to make you doubt this,

remember, my heart has always belonged to you.

How do you know for sure that what you lost was what you have been looking for all this while?

Everyday, I just fall deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit.

I surround myself with this invisible barrier so I wouldn't feel as much pain as I've had before.

I've seen with my own eyes what love can do to you.

I've seen my friends get hurt to the point that they're so ready to take their own lives, or to the point that they just can't feel a thing.

I've seen it and I don't ever want to go through it.

But sometimes, things happen.

Someone to love you with all his heart is difficult to come by.

Habib

Shy (Shiny)

:D

I love yesterday. It's been so long since I had this much fun. Ahmad finally found time to come over to play with the cats. Yup, I have 2 now. We got the second one last Sunday. It was totally random. We were at the farm to buy Habib's nail clippers and my Dad saw Shy in her cage and he and my mum decided to buy her because they wanted to breed the cats. -.- Shy is a 6 month old British Blue Silver Classic Tabby and she is pure EVIL~~ Haha, just kidding. She's lovable but extremely shy and afraid of us. Everytime we approach her, she tries to run away. So, yeah, there you go, Habib now has a pussy girlfriend. HAHA!

So anyway,Ahmad played with the cats, I cooked for him 'cause he was hungry, and he played Kinect with Farah. Hilarious. :) So when he wanted to go off, my mum came home. She helped me pack the cake for him, and then I ended up following him for his outing with his friends where the attendance was incredibly miserable. The ones who turned up were the usual: Shak, Thahirah and Rafi, who was late. Ate at Zam Zam with Shak, Thahirah and Ahmad, before they all decided to shisha at Bali Lane. I didn't, of course. Never again. Haha. We could see the fireworks from where we sat, which is super duper cool. So when Rafi arrived, we took out the birthday cake and the number 19 candles and well, I guess I'm happy to say that at the end of the night, the cake was almost finished. Ahmad went off first, but I couldn't cause no one's home and I didn't have the house keys so I stayed with the rest. But really, I enjoyed my time with them. It reminded me of the first time I met them; they're still the same people. :)

It was supposed to be red, and it turned out pink. Sucks, man. But at least they loved it. :D

Off to finish up my codings, clean the house, bathe Habib and do some ironing. Lovely Saturday, hopefully Sunday will be nice so that the weekend will remain awesome. :D

We attach ourselves too closely to people sometimes and when they're gone, a part of us is gone too.

It's 1.46am in the morning, and I've just spent the past 30 minutes crying my eyes out.

I just read the most heartbreaking email I've ever received in my entire life.

This wasn't what I wanted. It's really not. I wish things could change, I wish it could get better. I wish it would be different, so much more different than it is now. I wish it could be the same as the past happier days. But no it can't. Because the damage is done.

Is it true then? There's a reason why some people never made it to our present. Cause that really sucks. I'm at the edge of losing my mind right now.

In the crowd of faces, sometimes I wished yours would be one of them too.

Ahmad Mustaqim surprised a sleepy me this morning when he told me to check my Facebook. So me being the curious cannot wait till I get to school kind of person when it comes to this, used my phone to check FB. And voila! I saw the above video he sent. So, while I was watching, I was crying because it was so sweet. & the lyrics <3. :)

I just find him so cute in this shot. He's such a sweet and talented musician. :) Ahmad, thank you. :3

I'll update properly when I have the time. This week is emotionally stressful due to FYP deadline coming up so soon and one particular teammate giving problems. The best part about yesterday was I get to sit next to Ummi Aisyah and talk to her. Terubat rindu aku. :D

Last week:

So, Habib was down with flu last week and his eyes were in bad condition as well, so my sis and mum brought him to the vet at Jalan Kayu (apparently, my sis says the guy vets there were so handsome -.-) and he got pills and eye drops, and the cone thing above. So cute right! He was so upset with the thing. Well, it was uncomfortable, obviously, but it's to prevent him from scratching or cleaning his eyes with his paws. We bathed him on Saturday and it was hilarious. Towel dry him and then used the hair dryer to dry him further. He ran and ran around the balcony. So hilarious. He's a really smart kitty, for a three month old. Every time I prepare the saline solution and cotton pads for his eyes, he'll run away. It sucks when he had the flu, he was always sleeping and less active.

Last night:

This little buddy actually accompanied me to watch Jennifer's Body. I kept him nearby 'cause I was scared even though the movie was nowhere near scary. But I still have to admit, Megan Fox is really awesome. So anyway, ever since he recovered, he's been sliding around the house. The floor of my house is marble, so for his kind of fur, well, bottom line, he just loves sliding around. He'll purposely run so fast and slide around corners. -.-

& he woke me up this morning by licking my lip and then sitting on my neck. Perangai gemok. Takde tempat lain nak dudok. But it was a good thing because it was six plus and I had to get up for school. A living alarm clock. HAHA!

http://leloveimage.blogspot.com/2011/06/im-not-going-anywhere.html

I was tearing up when I read this. I wonder what's with me lately. I'm letting myself fall deeper, even though I know it will hurt me. Because in the end, it always hurts. :(