The message i sent to my lover when he ended things telling me he all of a sudden had no time for or relationship...

There's so much left unsaid that It's got to a point where I'm a mess. I can't keep trying.

I won't lie; I still hope you'll call & probably won't move on properly till you do.

I'm confused that you were just going to leave it though you know what I'm feeling.

Being openly emotional isn't something I do so you know I'm really trying.

We've both had unsuccessful relationships & it kills that you won't give us a chance.

I just wanted to be there for you. No drama, just me & you.

Despite what you have going on I'd support you not stress you. You say your life has a schedule,

I could've worked with that; all I wanted was your time, however much or little.

I need you to know that I would've been different. No lies, control, cheating or games.

Think of the time we spent together. You know we'd have been good for each other.

You made me feel things I'd never felt before then took it away as if it was nothing.

As if I was nothing. No explanation. Imagine how that feels.

I don't know if it's because of what happened or because you truly don't want someone right

now but you will soon enough, we all do, & I'm here. Still wanting you just the way we were.

If you felt everything you said you did you could balance it. But I can't force that.

You have your reasons. I just wish you didn't.

You mean so much to me & you can't tell giving up on us makes you happy.

I meant it when I said I loved you.

We had something. Maybe it's over. Maybe you need time.

Either way my feelings won't change.

-anon

I can't describe how I felt when I read this. It kinda hurts me, and I could imagine myself in that person's shoes. I understand how that person felt. Well, kinda at least. :(

I'm on night shift. I was planning to rant here, everything that happened today. & it's all about my sick aunt. I'm trying to be as patient as I can with her but sometimes, she just makes you so angry that you can't help but leave her. But it's because of pity that you come back to her to help. I don't know what else to do, man. People have limits to their patience. She has crossed the line many times, and it is because of her that my parents fight, and me and my sister fight too. Sometimes, the four of us argue among each other. It's very frustrating when the only days that you're really at home, you spend them fighting with your family.

I'm actually really tired of having to deal with this. I'm really, really very tired.

I think I'll go sleep now. Have to wake up at 3am to look after the woman till 7am. Bugger. Hope Charmed will keep me awake.