It's hard to get used to this everyday. The sight of my aunt vomitting. No matter what, I'll never get used to it, and sometimes, I avoid her because it hurts so much to hear her in pain. The doctor said, anytime. I'm not prepared for an anytime. Seriously. Just now, I thought she was gonna drop dead. She looked so weak, and her face showed agony, and I didn't know what to do or say or think. All I did was watch her, and pray silently.

If only she doesn't have to suffer even longer. I don't know why I'm saying this, but I'd rather she go earlier than later. But I guess this is her ujian from Allah. :)