I hope you'll never stop loving me.

Because with you, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

How I found you, how you found me, I'll never quite be able to figure out.

But I hope that whatever we have never stops.

The future is an uncertain space but as long as I have you...

I'll brave through whatever's ahead.

I hope to make the 5 year plan work.

:)

I've been feeling pretty emotional lately.

Which explains the above.

So I'll update properly the next chance I get.

But at the moment, just leave me be with my emotions.

I've said before that 2014 hasn't been good to me.

But I'm hopeful that 2015 will be better. InsyaAllah.

Bad times don't last forever, right? :)

Till the next post, InsyaAllah. :3

Salam! One more month to the end of 2014. How time flies by so incredibly fast. All I can say is it had been a tough year for me. I ended my diploma course officially and for the first time since I embarked on my teaching career, I took on a challenge to own and set up my own classroom. & boy, it was a damn challenge. But if it wasn't for the support system I had, I would have crumbled a long time ago. All I had to think of was who I was doing all this for. Without my parents, I would not be here. Without them, I am nothing. :3

It's been a while since I featured him here. He has been very, very busy with school lately but that's okay. I've been busy too. Busy catching up with my sleep at home. Hahaha. Actually no, I was spending the past week revamping my room with my sister. We just got a sofa bed and a few shelves for better organisation. The sofa bed is the best! Such a space saver.

I actually don't know why I'm posting, but just to fill up the silence. Sigh. I miss the person who used to blog every single day. I'm too busy now. :(

Till the next post, whenever that would be. InsyaAllah.

Graduation Concert '14 is finally over!!!!!

Kudos to the kids for their efforts!

 The boy who can make me vomit blood.

He was the last person to get his face painting done.

A few minutes before his dance, he wiped the whole chunk of painting off his face on his shirt.

Tell me how I don't feel like ripping off my tudung in anger.

-.-

This year, as a form teacher, I learnt that every teacher needs a teacher's pet.

This is mine.

The one and only child in my class who would offer me help.

Who would remind me about things I may forget to do like opening the windows, taking attendance in the red file, writing the day and date on the board.

He'd help me give out worksheets, communication books, whatever.

He's the perfect role model for the class.

I think I would have long gone crazy with this class if I didn't have his help.

I love you long time, Ern Kang. 

& I will always remember you as my best student. :3

After SPARK, I've been busy with the above.

When we practise at the amphitheatre stage so that the kiddos can have a feel of what the stage will be like, the whole stretch of blocks probably heard me shouting at them.

Sorry, guys. Teacher Siti is such a perfectionist; sometimes she forgets the kids are... well, kids.

Anywaysssss

PORTFOLIO PERIOD IS HERE!!!!!!

Due to all the hoo-haa with SPARK, I did not even touch my portfolios.

I'm dead for sure. Have to burn the remainder of the term with portfolios.

Till the next time, guys.

I'm in a much better mood now that SPARK is over.

I hope to find myself back together again.

:)

Get It Right

At Gardenasia 2 weeks back :B

I'm at my wits end and just need to rant. So many things on my plate and partner not even in town for 10 days and the assessors are coming next week on the 16th! I can't blame them but you know this year is Spark year, you know it can either be pushed forward or backward, yet you still dare to go. If it were me, I wouldn't go. Not with the kind of team I have, sad to say.

But whatever, all I can say is I've tried my best to help you. If you think it's not enough when you come back, that would be your problem. Your room is a mess, we can't even help you find stuff.

I'm just gonna see what she says when she comes back. 

I've been staying back in class after hours and I keep finding myself weeping tears. I'm just really tired. Just one more week to go. Please, please hang on, Faz.

I just have to stay and face my mistakes

But if I get stronger and wiser,

I'll get through this

I like this picture. :)

I'm pretty stressed out right now. With SPARK assessment coming up anytime, realising I lost my thumb drive that had my water play lesson plans and other curriculum related stuff, having activities that are not good enough at my learning centres.... I'm pretty choked to the neck.

I gave myself a deadline. By the Saturday before Hari Raya Haji, all my curriculum paper work has to be done. Which basically means burning midnight oil everyday. But it's okay because I wanna get SPARK done once and for all.

I have a lot of things to rant about, and I don't even know where to begin. My long hiatus is unforgivable, to me, but I've been really, really busy and tired. I guess this is what adulthood's all about. You have the money but less time and energy to do things you love.

The only things I love and was able to retain is piano and gamelan. I'm afraid to drop either because they're my only escape from the stresses I'm under.

Sigh. I wouldn't say I'm not happy about the direction I'm going right now. But I guess I gotta have faith in Allah's plan for me. He wouldn't put more on my shoulders if He knows I wouldn't be able to bear it. :)

Until the next post, InsyaAllah.

In the midst of all the things stressing me out,

I forgot to remember the one thing I keep trying to do.

Having trust and faith.

It's always me and my stupid insecurities.

You're one to preach, Faz.

You can't even do it well.

Nicely done, Faz.

Ruined everything.

Just can't forgive myself.

I'm starting to forget the person I used to be.

I'm losing myself in all the work I'm sucked into.

I honestly can't take it anymore.