Nobody Knows

I couldn't stop staring at it when I got home. It even made me cry, and I couldn't stop till my maid told me to solat maghrib before it was over. I don't know why, but it means a lot to me right now. I really don't know why.

I dreamt of my grandmother last night.

& today, my boyfriend's grandmother gave me the above.

Words cannot even describe how I feel right now.

& I don't know, maybe that dream meant something, so I decided to join my maid when she bace Surah Yassin (sp?). Soooo, my heart kinda feels at ease right now 'cause it's been a while since I read Yassin for my grandma. I hope she comes in my dreams again soon. I miss her, even though I can hardly remember my time with her.

It makes me appreciate what I have right now. It makes me thankful to have what I already have. I wouldn't ask for more, I wouldn't ask for less. I'm just fine with where I am now.

My maid told me about what her friend said to her:

"Kita minta pada Allah setangkai bunga segar dan indah. Namun diberiNya cactus berduri. Kemudian kita minta pada Allah binatang mungil dan cantik. DiberiNya ulat berbulu.

Kita sedih. Kita protes. Kita kecewa.

Adilkah ni?

Namun kemudian, cactus itu tumbuh dan berbunga indah banget sekali. Dan ulat itu pun berubah menjadi kupu-kupu yang teramat cantik.

SUBHANALLAH..! Itulah jalan Allah, indah pada waktunya. Allah tidak memberi apa yang kita harapkan, tetapi Allah memberi apa yang kita perlukan.

Semoga kita termasuk golongan orang-orang yang bersyukur atas segala ni'mat yang Allah berikan. Amin."

- Wariq

I am speechless.

The nights are lonely, the days are so sad

And I just keep thinkin' about the love that we had

And I'm missin' you

And nobody knows it but me

I Will Be

So. My dearest Ahmad surprised me this morning by msging my own address to me and that he was waiting at 8.30 plus in the morning at the block opposite mine. I wasn't really that surprised that he came, but I was surprised that he knew my address. & the fact that I don't remember telling him. Sigh. But anyway, at 9 plus, I met him at 537 and off we went for breakfast at Mac's.

After breakfast, I realised that my Broadband Mobile wasn't in my bag, so we went back to my house to get it. And now, he officially knows where I live. Hahah. After that, headed down to Orchard Central Spinelli to study. Well, I did. He FB-ed and watched The Dudesons on YT. Hahah, never mind.

At about 1 plus, we went to the masjid next to Paragon (Al-Falah, issit? [sp?]) for Zohor. Yesss, I went for prayers with my boyfriend. First time ever that this happened. He's turning me into a saint. No, scratch that. He's turning me into an USTAZAH. -;- Pffffft. Maybe soon you'll find me wearing tudung for the rest of my life. Which isn't a bad thing but I'm not ready to commit to that yet. Ah, well.

After Zohor, we went to Takashimaya to walk around, since he wanted to "walk around". Went to Kinokuniya and looked at scores. He found Lamb Of God scores. Tskk, hahah. Spent some time there, and then to Art Friend. They still have the hearts styrofoam thing (thank God!) that I wanted to buy for Mum's cupcake tier deco. Didn't buy, didn't have enough $. But it's good that they still have it. Considering how I only knew of its existence back in 2007.

We headed for Woodlands after that 'cause Ahmad had to pay his fines or something, if I'm not mistaken. It was sucha hot day, seriously. I was sweating like mad. After that, lunched at Causeway. Wooooo, my favourite part. I had this Seafood Tom Yam Bee Hoon, and heck, when I got it, I thought it was a lot. I knew I wouldn't be able to finish it. But guess what?? I DID FINISH IT! Ask Ahmad. I was so proud of myself. Hahaha. & guess what? I'm hungry again. We ate at around 4.30 plus, and it's 8.55 now. Hahahahaha. My stomach is weird these days.

Anyway, we had nothing to do after lunch, so we walked around Causeway and ended up at Courts. Looking at EVERY sections. Appliances, Fridge, Beds, Electronics etc. Ahmad followed me around and pulled me away from the stuff whenever I get too close just because he was afraid we'll get approached by the salesguy cause I look like a potential buyer. -.-

& we shall end with the sunset today. It was gorgeous. Simply. Gorgeous. Too. Breathtaking. & my heart broke (too many times already) when I remembered that my Canon 400D.... is spoilt. T.T

I thought that I had everything

I didn't know what life could bring

But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right

The only one I let inside

Now I can breathe 'cause you're here with me

Right Here, Right Now

I know it’s only been half a year, but it has been a really beautiful period for me. Thank you for putting up with all the shit I keep giving you, thank you for being ever so patient with me, thank you for always being there for me, thank you for making me believe in myself again, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. And lastly, thank you for loving me unconditionally.

Happy number six, baby!

Right here, right now

I'm looking at you & my heart loves the view

Cause you mean everything

Right here, I promise you somehow

That tomorrow can wait, some other day to be

But right now there's you and me

P.S: & Syaiful Amiril Bin Haj Mohamad, thank you for remembering our monthsary. Our happiness right now, is all thanks to you. :) I really hope you'll find your true love soon. [Ahmad bilang aku. Heh.]

AIRSHOWWWWW!!!!!!!

Never had so much fun in my life till today. It's like, going to a big event with your best friend, and not with your family. It feels so... grown-up. Even though we didn't really act like one. HAHA. But heck, who cares? We had loads of fun. And from the pictures itself, I looked very happy. No, WE looked very happy. It's like, after what, months since we last had a good outing together, we FINALLY had one. After all the shit we went through that concerned family, school and friends, we had one happy, enjoyable, hot day to ourselves. And when I say hot, it's really hot, as in, not the weather. Heh. But the over-excited one wasn't me though. Haha. I got the videos of her getting all excited about the angmohs, and after the pictures with them, how red her face was. Hahahahahahaha. We did a lot of jump shots. & a group of teenagers stole my idea when I suggested jump shot as they were passing by. Walao, no originality sia. Copyrighted tau. Gawddd. Oh yeah, not forgetting the part in the Exhibition Hall when someone went smack into a pillar with an extinguisher. -;-

The aerial display disappointed me a little. The first time I went, there were so many stunts. There was even a V-Day dedication to the couples and whatever. The planes did a heart-shaped smoke trail or whatever you call it. I liked that. But then, this time, it was like, one plane pass by, zoom here there up down left right twist twist, then dah. It's like, just one by one fly here there, then dah. No like, four at one go, fly upwards with the smoke trail thing. No super cool stunts like making shapes or whatever. Out of ten, I'll rate them four. Seriously, the 2008 aerial display was way better.

Nevertheless, I had lotsa fun today. Especially the jumping shots. It was crazy. The not so fun part is my hair that keeps flying all over the place because the wind went crazy on us.

I'm not sure why I don't really feel that tired. Maybe because tomorrow is a special day. But I have to tag along with Sisto to OC for her tuition with Rafi and I will have to squeeze in revision time for Maths. Still, tomorrow is a special day. Too bad I have a cough. Eating my dearest Strawberry Cheese Tart won't make it better, so sad. But! Tomorrow is still a special day...

OHH! My phone just reminded me about tomorrow. "6th Month in 10 minutes". Hahahaha, I love my phone. Plus, it played Utopia as the ringtone. Heh, heh, heh.

I'm gonna go do my mum's stuff while waiting for my midnight caller. Weeeee~~~

According To You

I still feel high, but not so high like yesterday. Mirah said it could be because of my medicine. HAHA. No, it's not, I just feel happy lately. 'Cause something someone said made me realize a lot of things. I shall not talk about it, yeah, but I'll post stuffs I found while I was dead bored just now. Tsk.

(& the title for this post, is a song I happened to stumble upon. Me likes. Heh.)

I like this one! It's so cute! Haha.

Lagi satu, lagi satu!!

Cute peeee.

It's like, I went awwwwwwwww.

Can't help it. I think I'm going crazy with all these love websites stuff that I keep reading.

I ain't stopping though. HAH.

Lovely entertainment.

Gawd, my throat still hurts.

These past few days have been very..... romantic.

Azhar just added a little humour to it.

I'm loving the last week of school!!

& Tumblr is lovely too!!

Airshoooowwwwwwwwww!!

&

Sundaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!

Wait, there's UT to study for. Bummer.

At least UT isn't during Ramadhan.

:)

But according to him

I'm beautiful

Incredible

He can't get me out of his head.

According to him

I'm funny

Irresistible

Everything he ever wanted

Everything is opposite

I don't feel like stopping it

So, baby, tell me what I got to lose

He's into me for everything I'm not,

according to you.

I was high today, not sure why.

Then something happened that made me emo again.

Like last night.

Seems like I can never be happy without having the pain to ruin it for me.

Hubbi, will you just get well faster?

I want my mother back.

I'm sorry this is selfish, but I want her to be the last person I see before I go to sleep.

It's a daughter thing.

A sick daughter thing.

Read this:

I went awwwwww.

I was about to love today but too bad.

At least Nat came to my rescue and made me laugh my ass off in class about balls and polaroids.

Love that girlie.

Saturday & the great escape.

& not forgetting, Sunday.

Heeeee~~