Graduation Concert '14 is finally over!!!!!

Kudos to the kids for their efforts!

 The boy who can make me vomit blood.

He was the last person to get his face painting done.

A few minutes before his dance, he wiped the whole chunk of painting off his face on his shirt.

Tell me how I don't feel like ripping off my tudung in anger.

-.-

This year, as a form teacher, I learnt that every teacher needs a teacher's pet.

This is mine.

The one and only child in my class who would offer me help.

Who would remind me about things I may forget to do like opening the windows, taking attendance in the red file, writing the day and date on the board.

He'd help me give out worksheets, communication books, whatever.

He's the perfect role model for the class.

I think I would have long gone crazy with this class if I didn't have his help.

I love you long time, Ern Kang. 

& I will always remember you as my best student. :3

After SPARK, I've been busy with the above.

When we practise at the amphitheatre stage so that the kiddos can have a feel of what the stage will be like, the whole stretch of blocks probably heard me shouting at them.

Sorry, guys. Teacher Siti is such a perfectionist; sometimes she forgets the kids are... well, kids.

Anywaysssss

PORTFOLIO PERIOD IS HERE!!!!!!

Due to all the hoo-haa with SPARK, I did not even touch my portfolios.

I'm dead for sure. Have to burn the remainder of the term with portfolios.

Till the next time, guys.

I'm in a much better mood now that SPARK is over.

I hope to find myself back together again.

:)

Get It Right

At Gardenasia 2 weeks back :B

I'm at my wits end and just need to rant. So many things on my plate and partner not even in town for 10 days and the assessors are coming next week on the 16th! I can't blame them but you know this year is Spark year, you know it can either be pushed forward or backward, yet you still dare to go. If it were me, I wouldn't go. Not with the kind of team I have, sad to say.

But whatever, all I can say is I've tried my best to help you. If you think it's not enough when you come back, that would be your problem. Your room is a mess, we can't even help you find stuff.

I'm just gonna see what she says when she comes back. 

I've been staying back in class after hours and I keep finding myself weeping tears. I'm just really tired. Just one more week to go. Please, please hang on, Faz.

I just have to stay and face my mistakes

But if I get stronger and wiser,

I'll get through this

I like this picture. :)

I'm pretty stressed out right now. With SPARK assessment coming up anytime, realising I lost my thumb drive that had my water play lesson plans and other curriculum related stuff, having activities that are not good enough at my learning centres.... I'm pretty choked to the neck.

I gave myself a deadline. By the Saturday before Hari Raya Haji, all my curriculum paper work has to be done. Which basically means burning midnight oil everyday. But it's okay because I wanna get SPARK done once and for all.

I have a lot of things to rant about, and I don't even know where to begin. My long hiatus is unforgivable, to me, but I've been really, really busy and tired. I guess this is what adulthood's all about. You have the money but less time and energy to do things you love.

The only things I love and was able to retain is piano and gamelan. I'm afraid to drop either because they're my only escape from the stresses I'm under.

Sigh. I wouldn't say I'm not happy about the direction I'm going right now. But I guess I gotta have faith in Allah's plan for me. He wouldn't put more on my shoulders if He knows I wouldn't be able to bear it. :)

Until the next post, InsyaAllah.

In the midst of all the things stressing me out,

I forgot to remember the one thing I keep trying to do.

Having trust and faith.

It's always me and my stupid insecurities.

You're one to preach, Faz.

You can't even do it well.

Nicely done, Faz.

Ruined everything.

Just can't forgive myself.

I'm starting to forget the person I used to be.

I'm losing myself in all the work I'm sucked into.

I honestly can't take it anymore.

You And I

5 years have passed so quickly.
Felt like yesterday that we sat at the pagoda in Chinese Garden with Syai
Where I poured my whole heart out and told you the truth
Yet, you're still here, always here for me.
& for that, I can never thank you enough for loving me just the way I am.

I hope I can be that girl for you.
I hope I can be the one for you.
No matter how hard I try to, I know my shortcomings.
I am, but a girl, after all.
I admire you for your patience these past 5 years.
& I hope to have that patience to be the best for you.

Thank you for the past 5 years.
Thank you for everything.
You've been the best.
& you always will be.
No matter what the future holds, as long as you're here, I will be too.
I love you, Ahmad Mustaqim.

You are my hope for tomorrow 

The only one who knows the real me 

The person who reached deep down 

And pulled me up through the dark waters 

You are my hope for tomorrow 

The safety net of my sanity 

The light at the end of my dark tunnel 

Who brightens my path away from demons 

 You are my hope for tomorrow 

A cord or silver links use 

It grows brighter and stronger 

Until the day it is complete

All of the stars

You make them shine like they were ours

Ain't nobody in the world but you and I

You and I

To sum up the past two days. :)