World Music Days 2010

My two favourite items currently. Heh.

So we were both involved in GA's performance at Skate Park today. It was kind of great. Somehow, it seemed okay to make mistakes, haha. The lunch before the show was damn funny. Didn't know there is another side of Amran we didn't know about. Haha, but it's good la. Anyway, the hightlights of today would be:

1) Ahmad getting a jewelry shop's flyer. LOL banyak-banyak, after what happened yesterday. HAHA.

2) Getting a picture taken with Sleeq. Somehow, my crazy fangirl behaviour wore off over the years so I wasn't screaming like a crazy fangirl but well. At least, I kept my promise. To only take a picture with Sleeq because they happened to be there. I told myself long ago that I would only take a picture with Sleeq if we were fated to "bump" into each other. I'm not gonna be like other fans who chase after them. HAHAHAHA. Still waiting for Miss Liyana to upload the picture to FB.

3) Meeting Shak & gang again after what seems like ages. Couldn't stop laughing my ass off, especially during dinner at KFC. :D:D

So that sums up my day today. I had so much fun, even though I was very tired, and almost slept during the Sunda Gamelan performance at Esplanade. Well, considering how I only had like, 5 hours of sleep. That's why I'm going off soon. Haha.

Sis felt like going out tomorrow. I wanna go out too. My hands really itch on spending that 40 bucks that's collecting dust in my wallet right now. Saw a dress at 313 Forever21 that's pretty. & the price shocked me because it was reasonable. I want sia! Shall drag Far there tomorrow if she really wants to go out.

Somehow, I find myself in love with F21 ever since I started wearing tudung. Is that a good or bad thing? I asked Ahmad if I was being materialistic (cause I wasn't that much before wearing tudung) but he doesn't seems to know. Hmm.

Okay. I'm off to bed. Goodnight, all. Enjoy your Sunday before Monday comes. :( Take care, and may you always be in the best of health. :)

Busy week ahead. Gaaahhhh~

This cheered me up that day.

The day I received news that I'm still trying to digest now.

I was just watching the Live in Texas videos. I really miss those times when we were so close. & Syai and his random jokes. & Ain and her beautiful voice. & Azhar's laugh just cracks you upppp!!!! Watching the videos after sucha long time makes me laugh all over again at Syai. But then, when we separated, we grew up, we had our different lives, we changed into different people somehow. Sigh.

Anyway, today ended perfectly. I kept that little thing somewhere safe. Hehe. Of course, I was not just scared but shocked! Heart attack skejap. Maybe muke merah, but I don't blush that easily. HAHA. But well, thanks for the funny moment. :)

I miss the melayus. But nothing will be the same again. But then again, it was never the same since almost a year ago. So much changed. People, attitudes, personality. What used to be a daily routine, changed into something else altogether. The people we used to hang with, get replaced.

But me? I'm not gonna do that. & I'm glad our Syai is back. :)

I want the op. But I don't want it too.

I'm too afraid of the risks, the chances of rejection.

I'm too afraid to lose what I still have.

If I lose them all, what am I going to do?

How can I continue living?

Ya Allah, what do I do now?

Happy Birthday, Buddy!

Hi, Syai. I don't have a very recent picture of you, and I feel lazy to save one from Facebook, so this is from last year in December.

Happy Birthday, my dearest friend! =D

Thank you for your friendship the past almost 2 years. I feel so lucky to have a friend like you, who's almost like a brother to me. You started my love story, and I would never forget that. But Syai, even if you didn't have a hand in my love story, I know I would still be your friend. Because you're the kind of friend no one would want to lose. Thank you for being there for me all this while. Thank you for trying to protect me. Thank you for all the advices you've given me. Thank you for everything you've done for me. & I hope that you'll have a blast on your 20th. May you always be blessed with good health and happiness always. & may you always be in Allah's protection. Amin.

P.S Sorry I couldn't do a surprise birthday bash for you like last year 'cause I'll be at the hospital for my checkup. Sorry, buddy. Have a blast though. :)

I never thought today would end the way it did.

I like how we cried together in each other's arms.

I didn't realize I could scare you as much as you scared me.

Or the fact that you were so afraid to lose me.

I realized that you do care about me, but you don't show it at all.

I failed to see that, 'cause you disguise it so well.

What caught me off-guard were your tears.

I never thought a guy could ever shed a tear for me.

This is the first time, and it touched me deeply.

When you told me about your nenek, I felt guilty that I wasn't there for you to turn to.

& I cried with you too when you started crying again.

I'm sorry, really.

I know you have a lot on your plate.

I never wanted this to happen or make things worse for you.

But I'm glad everything is fine now.

I just wish there is some way I could tell you how much you really mean to me.

I love you, baby. <3

I love you.

Don't and never doubt that. :)

Broken

I'm reading my blog posts from last year, trying to find the person you once were.

The difference is vast.

Everytime I think about what you did, I can't stop the tears.

I'm not angry, I'm disappointed.

Is it broken?

Can we work it out?

Let's light up the town, scream out loud.

Is it broken?

Can we work it out?

I can see it in your eyes

You're ready to break

Don't look away