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 The other day's photoshoot with the staff

(My cheeks tho, sheesh!)

We haven't received the class photos yet though but I'm looking forward!

10 years from now, I'd look back to this year being a year of tests and tribulations :)

So the boss decided to celebrate the end of August baby and early September baby together

When she wanted to give me the card of well wishes, I decided to have the above for keepsake

Best boss, hands down!

Kak Layla, I mean, Teacher Layla! :3

It's nice to have more Muslim teachers now because I feel more valued as a Muslim individual.

There are more voices to back me up for anything that may be an issue to our religion.

You get what I mean? Yes? No? Okay.

I've been in a turmoil of feelings lately and I don't know why.

There's just something on my mind that's been bothering me.

The realisation that struck me as I was lying in bed one night.

After the truth sunk in.

I don't know what the future holds, or if it's the end of us,

or if it's really my fault in the first place,

or just simply pride and ego...

But I feel sorry this happened.

That's all.

I'm only focusing on the positives in my life right now, ditching the negatives and standing up firmly for my rights and beliefs.

I know now it's a lot harder than it sounds but I'm still trying.

Whatever this is now, I accept it with a heavy heart but I know it's for the best.

2 and a half months till the school year ends.

The kids are growing too fast. Too. Fast.

Dedicating this week to my assignments.

& staring at Calum's face before I close my eyes.

(Literally because he's on my phone wallpaper hahaha sorry Bang Mus :3)

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend

Yeah, I know you can make it through 'cause I believe in you

So let's go put up a fight, let's go make everything alright

Go on and take a shot, go give it all you got

Oh, yeah, I know it's not easy

I know that it's hard, no, it's not always pretty

Get up and go, take a chance and be strong

Or you could spend your whole life holding on

Don't look back, just go, take a breath, move along

Or you could spend your whole life holding on

You could spend your whole life holding on

Over and Over

Most exciting event in August?

Our 6th year anniversary and finally celebrating it together.

BaliThai lunch at RWS, cable cars and ice-cream!

Time really flies, it's not even funny.

I'm very tired nowadays.

No matter how early I sleep, or accidentally fall asleep,

I'm still tired the next day.

Currently pretty excited for the upcoming field trip to SEA Aquarium on 1st Sept.

I've got 2 almost full classes of attendance and it's a record breaker for a field trip!

Excited and stoked for this, literally got all my camera stuff ready for pictures and videos I'm gonna take while there with them.

Sadly, they don't allow food and drinks to be consumed in the premises so my plan for the picnic in front of the huge ocean gallery was ruined.

Need to find something for the kids to do while there, though.

I start classes tomorrow again.

Alhamdulillah, so far, I've been doing well.

I'm just looking forward to completing it and moving on to the next phase of my life......

Cheh, no la please. 

My sis keeps talking about leaving the country.

She's so adamant about it, it gets scary sometimes.

I don't know, man.

I have to help out for the upcoming elections, by the way, which sucks balls.

Okay, gonna go now.

Till the next post, InsyaAllah.

I hope so.

Been having too much chest pains lately. :'(

You know something I don't 

It's not like you to be cold 

Every night replayed over and over 

You say things that I don't 

You make me feel alone 

Every night replayed over and over

Salam!

Currently stressed out with my curriculum filing.

But just gonna take a moment to say...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to whoever still reads my blog...

Maaf zahir & batin! :3

I know I haven't updated much...

Or not at all but trust me, I'm trying my best.

Just that lately, there's so much to say but the words don't quite fit.

There were so many occasions that I emo-ed so bad but I just didn't feel like typing it all out.

Sorry.

Till next time, folks, InsyaAllah...

Good Girls

Hey, sexy. My current obsession: Calum Hood. 

The arms, his arms, oh god.

*heart eyes* :3

Salam! It's been a really long time since my last appearance. Things were pretty hectic in May, but at least that's all over now. Whatever happened then, hopefully it dies down by the time the new term starts. I told myself I'm not going to give them a reason to pick on me anymore. I learnt from this experience and I will up my game so my teachers don't get bullied by sadistic parents.

Anyway, I'm supposed to be on my last assignment for the term now but just a quick post. I miss blogging, I really really do.

So I finally picked up my Grade 3 Piano certificate and results. My examiner was a real cutie, by the way, but his handwriting is ATROCIOUS! I can't even figure out how to read, sheesh. But anyway, Alhamdulillah for attaining a Merit! :D:D:D:D

Somehow, I look fat here hahaha.

Aural test just passed is good enough. I know I messed up on that one. 

Especially my tone-deafness. T.T

I want to complete my piano studies so badly but it's the money constraint that holds me back every single time. I spent almost $2K just for this Grade 3, including the exam fees. I have so many dreams I want to achieve but I can't seem to keep up with them and I refuse to let those dreams go. Since young. It's a dream since I was a little girl to complete my piano studies so I can teach it too. Every decision I make now, I have to weigh the consequences carefully, and it makes me sad sometimes. Hais. 

Yesterday, my team of teachers had to be at Bedok Stadium for our team wellness day declared by the boss. So, when we reached, we ended up standing under the shade of the trees. Hahaha, well not all. There were the fit few who went up to 5 rounds of jogging. Second pic was me teasing Irene as she passed by but it looked like I was jogging with her, eh? Boss is a not bad photographer. Until she cheated my feelings by videoing my butt instead of taking a photo. She has this thing for my ass, man, I swear. So many times that I passed her my camera for group photos and she took photos of my ass while I was arranging the kids. Seriously, this is why I wear loose clothes all the time. My butt's just too damn obvious. Now, why am I talking about my ass lolllll!!!

Anyway, it wasn't so bad. I'll never end up jogging regularly though so this is just fun and games for me. Take me swimming, or like, cycling, and I'm up for it. I hate running. Period.

Back in 2004, when we first met.

From 2006 onwards, we were known as the photography duo.

Going through heartbreaks and truants together.

Damn how time flies so fast.

This was back in 2013.

I miss her. It's really amazing how far we've come, through all the ups and downs, the kind of demons we both had when we were younger to the grownups we've turned into now. Sometimes, I wish I could just go back to being in school. We used to be so excited about growing up and working to earn our own money, now I wish I could take back those words. Can't wait till she gets back, man. But until then, stay safe, Nat. :3

Ended up being a long post! I'm gonna go now! Till the next post, InsyaAllah! And, may this Ramadan be beneficial to all Muslims out there!

These dorks. 

She said to me

"Forget what you thought, 

'cause good girls are bad girls that haven't been caught.

So just turn around and forget what you saw

'cause good girls are bad girls that haven't been caught."

Happy belated 5 years 9 months to the one who matters.

We'll get through everything in store for us, together.

& InsyaAllah, we'll be where we plan to be.

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Salam, it's been a while. :(

Things have been a turmoil lately, but that's alright because I'm surviving. I'll always pull through in the end. I'm currently still recovering from last Saturday's sports carnival because I had to spend 5 hours under the blazing hot afternoon sun, which was a terrible idea from the committee. I think the teachers suffered more for this year's event as compared to last year's. At least, last year, the morning sun wasn't too bad. I had migraines for the whole of Sunday.

Anyway, I was having a conversation with my little sis (the middle one is currently in BKK) and I discovered that she was bullied in school. I told her about my own experiences, about not speaking up and suffering in silence. I urged her to fight back and to defend herself. To not be the pushover that I was when I was in school. Unfortunately, I guess it's just the softies that we girls are sometimes, but I realised that all three of us seemed to share the same fate in our primary school years: being bullied. Middle sister had better secondary school days, but mine turned sour in the later parts. Whatever. I've seen better days and I now know my worth. I've learnt to speak up for my unhappiness, especially at work. I've learnt the true meaning of friendship, and how they get destroyed when ego/pride rears its ugly head. I need to find a way to teach my lil sis these lessons so that she doesn't make the same mistakes I did.

This year hasn't been smooth so far but, I'm coping. Reading a lot due to my degree. Sigh. I just wish I could graduate with a degree without having to go through the studying and assignments shit. Juggling them with work is making me go nuts at times.

Been doing portfolios lately. Somehow my photos of children seem to multiply and multiply. I actually aimed to finish all by end of April. Not so sure but hopefully by end of April, I would complete at least my morning class.

I miss this young lad right here. I haven't seen him since who knows when. & this picture was taken like, in 2013, I think. When he was slimmer and clean-shaven looking, hahahaha. You gotta admit he looks good here. 

Guess that's about all my update will be. For now. Come May, I'll probably be nearing lunacy but I promise I'll be strong. :D

Salam and always be in the best of health, InsyaAllah. :)

Best Day of My Life

Salam!

I can honestly say that for once, I enjoyed a no pay leave day. Spent the day with the loveliest and sweetest guy, who accompanied me to my piano practical exam and then a bit of shopping after that. A short stroll at Pasir Ris Park where I told him about my younger days' adventures. Hahahaha, I feel so old while typing that last sentence. Sigh.

It's been a while since I went out on a proper date with this guy. Long talks, deep talks about everything happening right now, some kind of a catch up from all the times we lost. It's really quality time spent with him and I love it. :)

The exam went so-so. I tried my best, screwing up part of my scales and arpeggios, screwing up first and second piece a little, but acing well for the third song. The cute examiner (friggin' young for a Phd holder) probably gave me an easy piece for the sight reading because of my stumbles. Sigh. But overall, so-so. Just hoping for a pass. Definitely cannot get merit. :( But having my boyfriend there, my sweet sweet boyfriend, to give me moral support, to calm my nervous jitters, meant everything to me. :')

I wish I could hit replay for today. I really enjoyed myself with Ahmad's company. Him driving the car and listening to me talk. Him teasing me like, all the time. I wish today didn't have to end. Because, it's back to reality tomorrow. It's amazing how someone could make you feel so happy. :3

Bismillah for the rest of the year. First term, and already received horrible treatment from one of the parents I have. But I'm going to just stay professional, and let it go. All I can do is my best. I'm only human after all. 

Thank you, Abang Mus for today, it was perfect. :3

Till the next post, InsyaAllah. :)

Just another day started out like any other

Just another girl who took my breath away

Then she turned around, she took me down and

Just another day that I had the best day of my life