Art Of Love

Better late than never.

Congratulations to our new President and Vice President !!!

It'll be a pleasure to serve under you.

Chehhh. Hahah. :)

Think it's time to face up to reality.

Think it's time to be optimistic.

Think it's time to stop blaming myself.

Think it's time to grow up.

Here's the lyrics to this song. Can't get it as the blog music, not sure why.

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I’m saying sorry in advance cos this won’t always go to plan

Though we don’t mean to take our love for granted

It's in our nature to forget what matters

How when the going is getting tough

And we’re all about giving up

Things that we never thought we’d gonna say, gonna say them

Things that we never thought we’d play, gonna play them

It ain’t perfect, but it’s worth it

And it’s always getting better

It’s gonna take some time to get it right

Cause I’m still learning the art of love

I’m still trying to not mess up

So whenever I stumble let me know

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out for me

Cause I’m still trying to learn the art of love

If I forget to get the door

Remind you that you’re beautiful

I know my detail requires more attention

If I ever hurt you it’s not my intention

Cause we’re gonna make our mistakes

Find out how much your heart can take

But I know that you got my back

And baby I got yours

Cause I’m still learning the art of love

I’m still trying to not mess up

So whenever I stumble let me know

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out for me

Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

Sometimes I’m gonna miss

I’m still learning how to give

I’m not giving up

I’m still learning how to love

Learning how to love…

Learning how to love

Cause I’m still learning the art of love

I’m still trying to not mess up

So whenever I stumble let me know

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out

You need to spell it out for me

Cause I'm still trying to learn the art of love

(The art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

Still trying to learn the art of love

Still learning, I'm still learning (art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

I'm gonna get it sometimes, cause I'm still learning

Still learning (art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

Still learning (art of love)

The art art of love

Ohohoh!!!

Happy 5th!

<3

Learning To Fall

Wish I could be this happy.

But sometimes, that's easier said than done. Nothing is that simple.

& you were so right about me. I can't believe it took me more than a week to finally realize that. Every word you said, every fact you pointed out, you were right, spot-on. It's like, it finally hit me; I am that kind of person, I actually did that to the most important person to me, the one who had been there all along for the past 6 years. & god, I felt so guilty; that I was never there, that I was so selfish. I am so sorry. Even if everything's fine, I'm still so sorry.

I can't believe I actually cried all the way home, partly because that finally hit me, and partly because the pain just never leaves. At least, I arrived home safely. I know Cik La saw my eyes, even Farah noticed, but they said nothing. Well, Farah did ask why but I didn't answer her. I was about to talk to my mum when I saw her walk into her room with a blanket around her. She looked so weak and tired, I didn't have the heart to tell her that I wanna see the doctor about the ovary thing. I broke down in the toilet, how pathetic is that? I knew the whole house would see my eyes, but it just hurts. Both the pain, and the feeling of being a burden to everyone I love. I'm seriously so tired of it. This. Everything. I don't know why I still push myself forward. Maybe because of them all, but maybe because I don't have much choice.

Might not go to school tomorrow. It still hurts right now. It scared the shit out of me just now when I suddenly had difficulty breathing. I guess chances of going to that BLG concert is 0%. I have my doubts. What a waste. So much for being so excited about it. But I guess it's for my own good anyway. Maybe next time. Ohwells.

Today is the day

the worst day of my life

You sulk until it hurts me

I don't know why

The cost of misery is at an all-time high

I keep it hidden

Close to the surface, inside

I couldn't sleep last night, have no idea why. Kept tossing and turning. Even when I managed to shut my eyes, I keep waking up. Have no idea why. & that's probably the reason why I had a headache the whole day, and on the way home, giddy like shit, at the bus stop, giddy like shit, in the bus, felt like fainting. Okay, kinda sounds drama-ish, but hell, I'm not. It's the truth.

Anyway, I filled my stomach with food and the headache's gone. Gonna read the 6Ps for Web UT tomorrow, then sleep.

OHHHHHHH. Saw Boys Like Girls' Two Is Better Than One music video. As usual, my Paul D. !!!!! Smokin' hot, I tell you. So sad Taylor Swift wasn't in the vid. Or else it would have been a goddamn better video.

Paul. Paul. Paul. Paul.

Sister says I'm crazy. HAHA.

It's a teenage thing! It's my last teenage year!

HAHA. I'm old, don't need to remind me. -.- betol la.

Anywaysss, Ezabel msned me out of the blue today. Had a shock. Apparently, she was just inviting me to 6/2 2003 class reunion at Costa Sands this 15-17. Like, finally, a reunion. That class was like the best, evarrr. But I'm kinda hesitant on going and I kinda know why. But hell, I miss them people, so hell, I'm going.

Okay, tomorrow, I :

- Will stop smacking people, intentionally or unintentionally.

- Will stop being rough

- Will stop swearing!***

- Will save up at least 2 buxx to put in the "polaroid bank" (applies to everyday)

That's it. My right shoulder hurts. I'm gonna head to bed now. One more thing:

HELL, I WANNA GO TO THE BLG CONCERT!!!!

Let's Just Fall In Love Again

The back one is Tiramisu flavoured. Awesome to the max ahh.

Studying again! Found out that Mum deleted my favourite messages from the red SE phone that I used to have. She's using it now so yeah, she deleted my favourite messages and she named Ahmad as "Ahmat Fazlun". -__________________________-

Seriously. My mum. Ahmat. AHMAT.

Anywayssss, school's starting on Monday. So not ready. Hahah. Studying like shit again. Touching up on vectors this time, and maybe graphs tonight. Yay! Pffft.

& next Saturday is the performance. I'm not sure who's gonna play gong for Slendro ('cause I'm not), which is on Thursday, and Maths UT is on the same day. Like, errr dotdotdot. Hahah. Will leave it to GNK.

Alright. Off to study! My brain hurts already. Hahah.

And I wanna fall in love with you again

I don't have to try

It's so easy who needs to pretend

But because

It's so funny let's just think about it honey

Let's just fall in love again

Staying up late studying again. & finally managed to grasp the formulae and all that shit. (All thanks to Rafi. Thanks again!) Oh boy, oh boy! School starts again on Monday! Haz msn-ed me just now, saying "I miss W46F". I was thinking, dudeee you sure?? 'Cause amazingly, I didn't. Not as much as I miss W35F.

I'm surrounded by papers and flashcards of maths equations. Pffffffffft.

Having a headache, but still pushing myself to study. Have yet to cover vectors and graphs. & I haven't even touched Web! Maths is sucha pain. But listening to piano covers on Youtube helps alot. Like Never Say Never. Awwsome, simply awwsome.

Bye!

Three Cheers For Five Years

Studying Maths at 2.08am. Hahah.

Forgot differentiation, so am forced to recap.

Haaaaaai.

The up part is this!

On repeat!

They're not bad!!

Found the scores, will learn it for real this time.

'cause this song means a lot to me.

For heaven's sake I know you're sorry

But you won't stop crying

This anniversary may never be the same

Inside I hope you know I'm dying

With my heart beside me

In shattered pieces that may never be replaced

And if I died right now you'd never be the same

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Hopefully 2010 will be a better year for all of us.

Bumped into Rafi, Marcus and Syafiq(sp?) in front of the yoghurt shop.

Had yoghurt with them and laughed like shitssss. Hahah.

I'm gonna study my ass off tomorrow, saturday and sunday.

Can't afford to fail any modules. Wish me luck!

Happy New Year again!!!

Somehow, the How To Save A Life song had me in tears. Hmm.