Meet Rachel, the best and most down-to-earth lecturer!

I will definitely miss her. Sigh.

Alhamdulillah! I've reached the finish line, officially, yesterday. The feeling was incredible, yet at the same time, I felt sad that it meant saying goodbye to the classmates I've grown to get used to seeing every morning.  Especially my closest gang. Fang Yi, my buddy, and Amielia and Shimah, who sit in front of us. I'll miss them the most because they're the ones who listen to my woes and who share the laughter with me. :'(

Now, I'm closing this chapter of my journey, and opening a new one. Today was the first day of working as a full time teacher and boy, was it tiring as hell. We had to help the workers move the boxes to Bay 2 because they were short of manpower. It was fine with me because seriously, gamelan instruments are way heavier than that. And besides, I've had experience with carrying heavy stuff and pushing them on trolleys. But the second time I had to push 4 boxes on the trolley, they fell in the middle of the road. I caused a jam of cars because of it but luckily, they were understanding about it cause I raised my hand to apologise. The banglas all ended up helping me hahahaha. Paiseh sia. They probably were thinking, "Alamak ni cikgu, dah la kurus lembik, nak step tolak 4 kotak." Hahahahaha!!!

My back hurts like crazy right now because I just got my period yesterday so the cramps come in full force today. Sigh.

So, here's the progress of the renovations for my classroom:

This was yesterday.  The place was a total mess. But they cleaned up today so, it's getting along fine. But the room is huge! Everytime I look at it, I stress myself out on how I'm supposed to decorate it. So today, when I had to go back there with my principal and the overall-in-charge-of-the-bangla-workers to choose which cabinet I want to have (you can see them in the picture. I chose the light cream one in between the brown and blue), I started to visualise on where my theme board would be, my weather chart and birthday chart, and so on and so forth.

It's so exciting yet nerve-wrecking! I waited one and a half year to finally OWN my OWN classroom. Hahahahahahahaha! Alhamdulillah, the wait was well worth it. :3

Okay, that's about it. Wish me luck as I embark on a newer journey as an early childhood educator. I'm nervous yet excited for the new school year! :D

Salam and may everyone be in the best of health! :3

Love, Fazz :3

Assalamualaikum!

Teacher Siti is feeling extremely stressed because renovation is almost done and she has no idea how to decorate her K2 classroom. Actually, she has an idea but, lacks the time and resources to get it down. Right now, she mostly focused on the learning centres' activities and task cards.

But, senyum saja. :)

I know I can do this. I always end up doing it better than I thought I would. It's just that, my spurts of creativity usually come at unexpected times instead of times that I actually need them. That's why I'm pretty stressed out because of it. But, gotta have faith. :)

Having a pretty bad headache right now. Sigh. I know I haven't been blogging much and I do need the space to vent out sometimes but my body just doesn't want to cooperate with me. I've been having very bad chest pain for the past one and a half week and it kills me inside. I can't laugh or talk loudly or just be myself, otherwise it'll hurt. But yesterday and today, it was gone, miraculously. I think I have to stop drinking hot tea. Mom said it's the one that makes your insides cold. So.... I've been drinking just semi-hot water. :)

That's about it. Haz is currently in London and I am so jealous. :(

I need a good break. Waiting for the next holiday: March.

Nah, December didn't feel like a holiday. >:(

Till my next post, InsyaAllah. :)

Half A Heart

Salam!

I thought I was gonna die today. After class ended today, all of a sudden, my chest squeezed in on me again. It's been happening too frequently, given the cold weather. So while I walked with my friends to the MRT, they all asked why I was so quiet. But that's because if I talk, or even laugh with them, I'd feel the pain. :(

All the way in the train to Lakeside, I tried to sleep. But the train was somehow moving to roughly, and every slight jerk made my chest hurt. I really don't know why I have this problem. The doctor said my heart was fine! >:(

So I immediately texted Ahmad about it, just to let him know (and also in case something happened to me along the way). I bought warm soya bean drink for the walk to his house but it didn't work. Even got the shock of my life when I saw a snake at the sheltered walkway from the MRT. Yes, a snake! Kind of like a tree snake. It was right in my path and zooming in on a bird on the grass. I was so terrified that I stopped and waited until the snake glided on the grass before I continued walking. Okay, pretty insignificant.

Anyway, I reached Ahmad's house safely but even as his mum started the session, I still felt the pain. I persevered on, because, well, just didn't want to trouble them with my pain. I just moved as minimally as I could. And as much as I just wanted to lie my head on the table, I just used my hand to support my head (LOL). Stress sia.

So when the whole session ended, his mum was in the kitchen preparing food, and that's when our dear Ahmad Mustaqim came in and gave me a big cup of hot, steaming milo. You know, whenever I had chest pain and I tell him about it, he'd tell me to drink something hot. Automatically. His theory is that I get chest pain because I'm cold. Or probably my insides are cold.

So when he put the hot milo on the table, I was like, "Is this for me?" In my head, I was like, "Please tell me this is for me." & when he said it was for me, I immediately drank it, even though it was kinda hot. Just needed the warmth.

& the pain gradually faded. It was faint, but still there. But the fact that he made the hot milo for me, it just touched me deeply. T.T

And not to mention the fact that during the ngaji session, I heard him azan for the first time. And it was so...... nice. It felt like his voice was touching the depths of my heart. :')

Thanks to him, I've learnt more in a year than I have in the past years. Blessed and thankful to have a figure like him in my life. :3

Anyway, this week, thanks to Kak Lina (one of my classmates), I learnt so much about parenting styles, and the kind of parent I want to be when I have my own kids. She gave a lot of tips (already has 3 kids) and also shared about her parenting style, the way she managed her children's behaviours as well as how she approached sensitive subjects like sexual education.

And I must admit, I really like her parenting style. If all my parents were like her, I swear, our classrooms would be peaceful everyday.

But the most important thing I realised that I learnt from her is her communication with her husband about how they raised their children. From the start, they discussed together about how they want to raise their children, what kind of punishment they would mete out, and they even tried the punishments on themselves first. I mean, this kind of husband-wife/father-mother communication is rare. Like, really, really rare. That's why I find Kak Lina just so, so inspiring. :B

Alright. What a nice long post. I have loads to do, starting with my classroom decoration. I went down to the school to see the renovation progress yesterday. And boy, have I loads to do because of the massive space I have now! Pretty excited and scared and nervous too! Hek hek. :B

Until my next post, InsyaAllah! Salam, and may you be in the best of health always! :3

Only half a blue sky

Kinda there - but not quite

I'm walking around with just one shoe

I'm half a heart without you

I'm half a man - at best

With half an arrow in my chest

'Cause I miss everything we do

I'm half a heart without you

& amidst all the mess, all I'm worried about is your safety.

You and your men who put yourselves in the line of danger.

For each and every shift, you have me always worried.

I'd spam your inbox just to make myself feel better.

But nothing comes back to me because you're so busy.

And that, I can understand.

But it sucks to be feeling this.

This restlessness.

I'm always so worried about you.

All I want is for you to be safe.

:(

Rough Water

Alhamdulillah! I feel so happy for her!

The long awaited day. :)

And finally meeting her son (from her first marriage)!

This boy is famous among us because she keeps updating her Facebook about him, and he's beyond cuteness!

And this is how we left our mark in the guestbook.

Drawing done up by Amielia.

I had to crack my brain so hard for the perfect words.

But it still turned out beautiful. :3
My first wedding invitation from a friend.
:)

So take a deep breath, and hold it tight 

My heart is yours just reassure me that you'll hold it right

Hey oh, never let go of me

Hold tight, it's gonna get hard to breathe

Never never let you drown

Even if we're going down

Hey oh, never let go of me

When I'm sinking

Titanium

Assalamualaikum!

I'm currently not in the best of health. I've been having a very bad headache, sometimes migraine, for almost a week now, and it's because it's the time of the month.

I swear, it's killing me. Sigh.

Finally completed my practicum folder. :3

A whole load off my shoulder now. So what comes next would be my load of housework waiting for me this weekend. Hahahaha. Seriously, now I feel like a working mum; come home from work to do housework and teach my "kid" her reading.

This could probably really be me in the future. ;p

Well, at least I get a first glance at it in advance. It's tiring!!!!!!!!!!! :( But then again, when you're a real mom and all that mother instincts kick in, tired would not be the first thing in your list. How truly great mothers are. :)

My work for curriculum and learning centres planning are not even half done. Got the whole of next week and the following week free to finish it all up. Hopefully I can do it. Kind of excited to take the K2s next year. :D

Keeping it short and sweet. Headache refuses to go away. Waiting for my sis to bring home my 100 Plus drink. :3

Salam, and may ya'll be in the best of health! :3

You shout it loud

But I can't hear a word you say

I'm talking loud

Not saying much

I'm criticised

But all your bullets ricochet

You shoot me down

But I get up

I miss you so much it hurts.

I don't know how I get through the days nowadays.

Without getting to meet you.

The days drag on, till I lose count.

And I wonder when it is that I'll get to see you again.
When all I can do is pray for your safety.
While you're out there facing dangers I cannot imagine.
I sit here with a white screen.
Doing my curriculum, and my practicum folder.
But all I'm thinking about is how much I really miss you.

Once in a while, right in the middle of an ordinary life, love gives us a fairy tale

Because the cramps are killing me.

And Shyme's soft fur warms me up in this cold weather.

You can always count on her to give you a cheer up when you need it.

Even if I don't get to keep Lumos, I want Shyme for the rest of my life.

:3

Uptown Girl

This guy here surprised me when he paid for the RWS membership card, which was worth $150, FOR ME!

He said I come here more often than he does so I could use the benefits.

My heart just, cair rabak because it's so sweet of him.

:3

He was saying that he looks more muscular now.

Yep, I agree. *hearts rolling outta may eyes*

Yay to fisheye lens!

Things are pretty much going tough for me right now.  But I'm thankful to have someone like him by my side, to remind me to stay strong, who knows just what to do to make me forget everything else and simply live for the moment.

Feeling pretty happy about the time spent with him. The jokes and laughter, and the annoying faces he always makes when we're taking selfies.

I love today. It's just what I needed to forget everything else, just temporarily. :)

Uptown girl

You know I can't afford to buy her pearls

But maybe someday when my ship comes in

She'll understand what kind of guy I've been

And then I'll win

I need to hear both sides of the story first.

But I can't help it.

I can't take it happening for the second time.

No, I just can't.

Ya Allah, give me strength.

Give my family strength.

Games and food feast!

The one I'm hugging, I call him Taeyang.

OMG SO CUTE PLS!

My principal said he looks like a chipmunk though.

HAHA.

*melts*

Sweet Nathania. :3

(Siddique and Grace masok frame je....hahaha.)

Assalamualaikum! It is officially the start of the school holidays! I bade farewell to the above children yesterday, some of whom I may not get to see again next year because they're moving back to their countries. :(

It was also sad to see the K2s go. Akil even gave me this!

I felt so touched, and close to tears. This boy is very sweet, and he has a very sweet smile too. Gah, gonna miss these kids so bad. :(

And so, I have about 1 and a 1/2 month more to go till the course ends. Currently finishing the remains of my practicum folder so that I can submit it by the end of next week. :B

Until my next post. And I should also mention that I'm already working on a project with my sis. Gonna visit a few places next weekend to get our resources. Bismillah, anything for my future.

Salam, and Fazzoutzz! :3

When I Look To The Sky

Because surprises have always been part of the package.

But he wasn't all that surprised.

He said he expected it.

Gotta work harder. *muka determined*

He never fails to cheer me up no matter what I'm feeling.

I will miss him next year.

Assalamualaikum! I'm still feeling tired and I don't even know why. Rushing out the remaining components of my practicum folder. Just wanna get it over and done with as soon as possible. Thought I could use a break and just update darlin', ol', faithful blog. :3

The past week has been a breeze, due to my not being at work for 2 days because of the field visits that are part of the practicum requirement. So it meant not being able to meet my babies for 2 days, and in total if you include the Deepavali holidays, it would be 5 days since I met them. T.T

But anyway, yesterday was terrible because of a complaint from a parent that involved me and JL, and put our abilities into question. I was terrified, but JL somehow managed to handle the situation, even though I don't quite agree with her choice of words. Don't wanna talk about it.

But while I was interrogating the child outside the music room, where the rest of the children were actually watching Tom and Jerry on the TV, suddenly they shouted, followed by a shout from JL. And then all of them came running out of the room. I was overwhelmed because Wayn, Nathania, Jessica and Grace came to hug me at the same time and I got thrown backwards. Luckily I was sitting on the gym mattress. I was so blur as to why they all ran out.

Guess why?

There was a flying cockroach that appeared out of nowhere. HAHAHAHAHAHA!

So funny la these kids. And JL.

Anyway, I've been giving some thoughts on a small project that I intend to turn into a small business. I've been wanting to start a little business of my own, initially being selling shawls and all that. But I scraped the idea because there's so much competition out there and I just didn't feel like going up for it. Then I considered picking up sewing. My mum's friend offered to teach me, but I just don't have the sewing machine. So I told her I'll start learning once my course ends. Then, when I saw someone crocheting a purse on the train, I suddenly had the interest too. Macam banyak je nak belajar. I want to pick up knitting too, 'cause my mum has the needles and yarn. She used to knit, when she was pregnant with me, she knitted a blouse for me, but it turned out too small for me. :O And I wanna learn to play the ukulele too! And continue my piano too! :(

See my dilemma! I may be young, and there's so much I want to learn, but I just don't seem to have the time for the things I want to learn. But then again, it's all about time management, right?

"Bak peribahasa, di mana ada jalan, kat situ kita jalan!"

"Oi kau perosak bahasa kau tau? Mana ada peribahasa macam tu?"

Hahahahahahahahaha! Okay, serious. I thought I'd just start with knitting or crocheting first. Just the basics first till I get the hang of it. I was also thinking of making my own headbands too, since I'm like in love with that kind of hijab style.

Mum's been pushing me to run my own business just as a side income. She said she could help me handle the customers and all that. I've just been considering it, but it definitely wouldn't be apparels. :) We'll just see how it goes. Priority is getting the course over and done with. :B

Kita yang usahakan, Allah yang tentukan. :)

I guess I'll slowly pick up the skills as I go along. I always had this picture in my mind of me sitting in a rocking chair (or something like that, haha), pregnant and knitting stuff for my kids. Okay la, kinda too soon for that, but I can just see myself doing stuff like that. 'cause I always told myself that I need to get all these kinds of valuable skills once I'm married. It will make everything easier.

For example, husband seluar terkoyak... Just pick up the needle and sew. Nak alas meja, tak payah beli, pick up the needle and knit. Nak shawl? Beli kain je, jahit kat tepi. 

:D

Now, we reach the more solemn topic. Today marks the third year since my aunt's demise. Her battle with cancer, ended on this very day and I remember it all too well. Rushing down to KK Hospital from RP (partial, duh), hugging her so tightly when I saw her still alive, my sis feeling upset because my aunt's condition just had to worsen on her birthday, bidding her farewell for the last time without even realising it, falling asleep in tears and waking up with news that she passed on just after midnight.

It still hurts sometimes whenever I remember her. In my prayers, in my journeys around the island, or just at random times. Wishing that she got the chance to know that I finally became a teacher, finally achieved my dreams. Because I knew she always believed in education. She never got the chances I wish she got but I know somewhere, she's watching. :)

I miss her so much. But at least now, she's out of her misery. But her presence will always be missed. :'(

I guess this is all. Dah emo ni. Hais. One more month! Yay, dapat bonus in December, InsyaAllah! Boleh beli camera baru! Hee. Yay, agaknye dapat K2 jugak next year. Yay, yay, yay!

Till my next post! Salam!

When I look to the sky

Something tells me you're here with me

And you make everything alright

And when I feel like I'm lost

Something tells me you're here with me

And I can always find my way when you are here

Lego House

Assalamualaikum, semua!

Faz is finally feeling happy and free, now that practicum and appraisal are over! Alhamdulillah, both went well. And yesterday, the school celebrated Deepavali/Diwali and my dearest babies got the chance to make their very own Rangoli (not the above picture though) because Bharathi's mommy was so sweet to draw up A4 size papers of a peacock so that the children can put liquid glue and sprinkle coloured rice over it, just like the actual Rangoli. I didn't have the time to take any pictures of the children in action because I was busy helping them squeeze out the glue. I'm pretty sure the children had fun, and I sure did enjoy myself too. Fashion shows, mass Indian dance and Rangoli making, I learnt more about our fellow Indian friends. Honestly, everyday I learn something from the people and children around me. :)

So we had a valuable teachable moment today when we met for an impromptu date after what feels like donkey years. We went around Plaza Singapura, from Uniqlo to find his black shirt for the GNK show this Tuesday, to Cotton On Kids to find Farah's belt, to Spotlight to find the cloth for the cats' new DIY scratching post, to Daiso to look for nothing in particular, to endless walking around, to finally buying Resident Evil 6, to endless jokes and laughter, to just really appreciating and enjoying each other's company. I wanted to watch a movie, badly wanted to watch Thor 2 so I could secretly ogle at Chris Hemsworth's macho-ness (heh!) but he said he had ngaji tonight. So we scraped that idea and just walked around.

Then, when I just about reached my house, he texted and said there was no ngaji today. I didn't know whether to laugh or cry because he said his ngaji place was dark and empty.

It's so funny how selengeh this whole moment was. We could have had more time together had he double checked but, hahahahaha.

I wasn't mad or whatever la. I was able to meet him at least, and that was enough. And the topics we talked about are still echoing in my head and making me smile.

This sweet guy.

This funny man.

If I had to give advice to ladies out there who are looking for their life partners, I'd say find someone who can make you laugh, who knows how to cheer you up when you're down and knows what to say to make you crack just a simple smile. Because laughter is one of the best medicine. :)

And so, our teachable moment is: Always double check, guarantee confirm plus chop, something before you go ahead and do it, whatever it is. :D *rolling on the floor laughing at Ahmad*

The things he does that can just make me laugh. But well, I've done things that embarrassed me too so, yeah. :B

Still, I can't contain the love I feel for this guy who has, over time, made me realise how so very important he is to me. Sometimes I can't believe how so very lucky I am, to the point I get super emotional. :') 

Thank you for everything, dearest. :3

One more week till my practicum period is ovaaahhhh!

Alhamdulillah, in less than 2 months' time, I'll be completing the diploma. And InsyaAllah, I'll continue on to take a degree next year. 

Until here, folks. Till my next post, and till then, may you guys always be in the best of health. Amin. :3

I'm out of touch, I'm out of love

I'll pick you up when you're getting down

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now

I'm out of sight, I'm out of mind

I'll do it all for you in time

And out of all these things I've done I think I love you better now, now

Dekat Padamu

Alhamdulillah!

The major part of practicum is officially over!

And, I passed!

All the late nights were not for naught. All the stress was for the sake of doing well. All the hard work and effort made was worth it. The exhaustion I felt lifted after she told me I did very well. The strong support and motivation from my principal kept me going and motivated me to do better for Sparks next year.

Blessed to have such a supportive principal/leader in the team, as well as colleagues who encouraged and motivated me. My senior teacher kept saying that my confidence level this year boosted higher as compared to last year. Hahahaha. *quick stop to Kembangan* :p

This calls for a good, worth the read post!

So, the K1-3 turned K2-3 class had their full dress rehearsal last Thursday and I was head in charge of the class with Val and Jeanne to help me because their form teacher, Miss Suraya, was nominated by MP to be the emcee for the actual day. Their dance item was a song called Colours of the Wind from the Disney movie Pocahontas, which so happened to be the very movie I always, always watched when I was younger. It was my favourite movie, somehow romantic to me at that age. Hahaha. John and Pocahontas. Yup.

So I was pretty busy on that day, and also pretty pissed because of a few things but I decided to just let it go. I felt emotional too because this was the first class I had, I met, I bonded with, when I first started out here. I'm pretty sure I'd cry on the actual day. I feel immense pride for them at the moment, and probably, will always feel so. :)

And so, this was our candid staff photo. That day we took the photo, Mr Ahmad Mustaqim was waiting outside for me, that poor guy. We actually met for breakfast at Bugis and strolled around, because he was off work on that day. Speaking of which, practicum sucks because I don't get to lunch with him on his off days. Sigh.

I'm glad that I'm part of this team because I have such an understanding and supportive leader heading the team. Otherwise, all the rest of it would definitely suck and my life for the next 2 years would suck as well. But, I'll stay positive and take everything in stride. For the children. :)

So, I decided to come down to watch GNK's rehearsal last night and to also meet the person above. Because we haven't met for 2 weeks plus already. I know right. It sucks, of course. But what to do? We know it'll always be worth the wait. And it is! We joked, we laughed, we talked. I realised how much I missed his company, how much just being with him makes me happy, makes me forget everything and the fact that we hadn't met for some time. & he had the car so he sent me home! Hehehe! Sigh. Missing him so much #rightnow. Pfft.

Because we watched the Justin Timberlake hashtag video with Jimmy Fallon.

Hehehe. Because we like to entertain each other like this. :3

Okay la. #sweetestboyfriendaward

#bestboyfaward

#bestgirlfaward

#taknakkalah

#mukastopiteh

#inisemuanormal

& to sum up this post, here's a mega shoutout to my favourite child-boyfriend (sorry, Mustaqim, heh) on his birthday today. Happy Birthday, my dearest cutest Wayn Goh! I wish you all the happiness, laughter and success in the world. May you grow to be a filial son to your parents, and a charming young man who'll make all the girls swoon, most definitely. Heh. He surprised me when he hugged me and said "I love you!" when he was dismissed to go home yesterday. Yours truly melted into mush. *hearts coming out from my eyes in millions* Hahahaha!

That's about it, folks! I've got 2 field visits to make next week in order to fulfil all the criteria for this practicum block and I'm done, back to classes in the morning, which I very much prefer but which will end in December. Better savour my last moments with the classmates. :3

This is where we say goodbye. Chehh, no la. I'm so happy at the moment, even though my cramps are killing the life of me. And that's just me being dramatic. I met Ahmad for the first time since ages, and may not get to again anytime soon, so I'm pretty much happy enough for yesterday's meeting. I passed my practicum. Wayn said those three words to me for the first time. The stress is pretty much reduced right now. Except for worrying about what level I get next year and who I'm stuck to work with. :(

Anyway, I will stay strong. With my bow and arrows, I will persevere. Chehhh~~

Till here then. Salam, and may ya'll always be in the best of health, Amin!

Love,

Fazniss

Walau jauh akan kugegas berlari 

Walau tinggi bisa kuterbang di langit 

Walau sedalam mana akan kuselami 

Kerana cinta sedalam itu mekar 

Bila ku dekat padamu

I can only pray for strength right now.

I really highly doubt that working an 8 to 5 job is really this tiring. On the other days where I had to return to work in the mornings because AIC declared no classes for those days, I didn't feel as tired as I am right now.

The kind of exhaust I feel is just indescribable.

But maybe it's because I went to work over the weekend, staying as late as 12 midnight on Sunday. And then realizing that Rachelle and me forgot to turn off the hallway aircon, thus causing me to wake up at 4.25am the next day (Monday) to reach school before 6.30am so that the auntie won't come in and catch the aircon having been left on the entire night. I slept at 1am and woke up at 4.25am. Imagine how super duper shagged I was for work that Monday, which is actually yesterday!

I can't believe I lost sleep over an aircon........ =.=

But I'm still glad I came over the weekend. Everything is pretty much set up and ready for yesterday, for the children to practise with me just for my supervisor when she comes on Monday and Tuesday.

So nervous already, but my morning kids are pretty bright and smart, so there shouldn't be any problem. If my supervisor was going to observe me with my afternoon class, I'd probably cry on the spot. Hahaha.

Tomorrow, I plan to talk to my darling principal to tell her that I want the morning K2 class next year and the afternoon K1 class. We'll see how it goes.

I wanna be this carefree again.

I feel so mega shagged.

Till my next post.

Whenever that is.

This is Alyssa.

She is the 3rd child I know who has Down Syndrome.

I realized I have a softer spot for children with special needs.

Unfortunately, my dad doesn't allow me to go into that sector.

Sigh.

Salam!!

I've had a rough week. From being constantly bullied by one single boy, to getting my tudung yanked by him and me dragged across the room because Jeanne was dragging him away from me, to people talking behind my back as usual, to being blamed for the stupid computer thing, to sigh, whatever.

Currently doing my lesson plans for when my practicum supervisor visits on the 28th and 29th. Woke up early to do housework, despite the fact that I slept at 2am. Jeesh. But the house is still messy, all thanks to Farah. Well, kids.

I don't have much to say 'cause I'm not really in the mood for saying much. But I do have to add that I finally gave the boyfriend his birthday present yesterday. And I thought Ahmad would send me to AIC alone but no, the whole family went along. Hahahaha. I still can't seem to warm up to his parents. I'm being too formal, still. :O But they seem okay with me. Like when I arrive for ngaji, his parents will be all smiles. And in my mind, I'd be like, "Okay, Faz, focus. Don't do anything stupid." Like trip over my dress.

*inserts muka gelak-gelak here*

Okay, I'm gonna go, otherwise I won't be able to finish my work. May the coming week go smoothly because it's the start of practicum! :O:O

Salam and me outz!

Feels Like The First Time

Before

After

This is my art learning centre. I spent from 4.30pm to 7pm today to tidy and pack the unwanted stuff up. Preparing for my practicum which starts on Monday. Stress, stress.

My boyfriend just gave me a surprise call just now. Heh. So happy to hear his voice, you know. I've been so super busy with assignments and work, and he's been super busy with work and all that NS stuff, that we barely even have time to meet. And for the record, we haven't met for 2 and a half weeks now. If I told Rachelle this, she'd be like, "Huhhh? Why until like that?" Again. Sometimes, people just can't believe that we could drag on for weeks without meeting. I get that kind of reaction a lot from people. But honestly, it's not like I want this to happen to us. If I could, I want to meet him every single day, 24 hours. But, sometimes, life gets in the way and all you can do is suck it up and hang on. Because you know that the next time you get to meet, it would be worth all that long wait. :)

And this pretty much sums up the entire post. I haven't had a title for the past few posts, I think, so here goes one after a while. From the Pitch Perfect "The Riff-Off" scene, where Jesse stepped up with his song that made him so freaking hot! When I'm obsessed with a celebrity, I'm very obsessed right? Hahahaha. Okay. Time to sleep. Last class tomorrow before the week ends to start of with le practicum.

And I guess it's just the woman in you 

That brings out the man in me 

I know I can't help myself 

You're all in the world to me 

It feels like the first time 

It feels like the very first time 

It feels like the first time

Meet my current obsession right now.

SKYLAR ASTIN LIPSTEIN

Oh, that smile.

*faints*

I'm starting to get better at my targeting.

Shooting more to the blue, red and yellow (bullseye)!

Can't tell you how happy I am!

And how excited I am to go there again!

Farewell outing for Phyu Phyu (the one in black cardigan)

Gonna miss her, of course.

Sigh.

Didn't intend to blog on anything in particular.

Just wanted to update on how much I love...

And....

Didn't get to celebrate his birthday with him.

:(

Meet my game stall!

Nerf gun #ftw

Awesome possum!

It was a super long q in the morning till I didn't have time to snap pictures.

Darling N2-4 kids who supported my game!

I was supposed to blog about this last night but I got so carried away doing my assignment essay that I forgot about this post. Anyway, it was an awesome and successful event. I love my children for the support and for being so cute! Joey was terrified of Siddique with the tiger face painting! Hahahah!

*faints*

But I was so tired after that. My neverending queue of children caused me to have a backache after just 1 hour into the event. Probably because I had to reload the gun after every bullet for them because they're not strong enough. Now, both my upper arms and thigh muscles are aching like mad. :(

Anything for the smiles and laughter of children. :)

Anyway, this was how my baked pasta turned out after baking with cheese.

Mmmmmmmmm sedaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppp!!!!!!!

The day has come, and she has left.

I feel tremendously sad, but it's ten time worse for Farah.

I'm not going to talk about it.

It'll just make me cry all over again.

I feel emotional enough already.

So, instead of a super emo post tonight, I decided to just post about what I made for my lunch tomorrow. In case you didn't know, I've been bringing food prepared from home to work for lunch, all because I wanted to see how much I can save from not spending on food. And thanks to the Monny app, I've been able to keep track of my spending and savings. :D

I've been craving for baked pasta for quite some time so I decided to make it for tomorrow's lunch. Since I've never made pasta or spaghetti from scratch before, I was just gonna do it the traditional way: dunk tomato paste into the pot and add whatever extra ingredients I want to it. But no, my sister told me (or rather, forced me) to use her recipe. But all of a sudden, she told me to google it, and use the one I find that has her 4 main ingredients. So, yours truly searched google macam nak terberak. Okay la no. That's disgusting. =.=

After the wedding jemputan at Bedok (where I met Ryan's grandma who gave me the shock of my life when she grabbed my hand and pulled me to where Ryan was. LOL. Super small world, but it's Bedok. Hahaha.) I finally went to deposit the money that Mei Yin gave, and at the same time, shopped for the groceries I needed for the baked pasta. Tomatoes (like probably 15, thanks to mum because she says I should stock up, but also because it's cheap. 10 cents per 100 grams!), 1 capsicum and 1 small can of button mushrooms. All that amounted up to $3.94!!!! I was expecting about $10 because of the many tomatoes. Hahahahaha!

I always wanted to have a food diary blog or something like that. You know, post stuff about what I cooked today and all that, instead of my usual ramblings about work and personal problems. I mean, it sounds more positive, at least. Plus, it'll be like a log book, how much I've learnt to cook and how much I suck or succeed at a certain recipe. Hmm, sounds like a good idea. Maybe I'll consider including it here, once in a while. :)

Anyway, here was how it went:

The sauce is called "Roasted Tomatoes, Capsicums, Garlic and Onions Sauce".

Or rather, these were the 4 main ingredients my sis insisted the sauce should contain.

First, cut the above mentioned ingredients into quarters or halves.

Bake them, or roast, whichever, them in the oven for about 45 minutes.

To cook the pasta while those are roasting in the oven, is completely up to you.

But I decided to cook the pasta while waiting, just for something to do.

Once the veggies are cooked, you'll get something like this!

It smelt so strongly of the capsicums.

Then, you blend it in the blender!

Here's what I learnt:

- You put too much capsicums, your mixture will turn yellowish.

- Too much capsicums: Taste will not be tomato saucy, but capsicum saucy. Yuck!

- You put more tomatoes, it will turn the correct colour of orange-y.

And! Tastes more tomato saucy!

I should have put half the capsicum!

So I added more tomatoes to solve the problem.

Put that whole mixture in a saucepan on the stove and heat it up.

Mmmmmmmmmmm!!!!!!!

I added Maggi tomato sauce and chilli sauce to spice it up more.

As well as oregano leaves and ground white pepper.

While heating up the sauce (make sure you don't burn it though)

I sliced up some of the button mushrooms.

I didn't use the whole can, just about 5 buttons.

And oops! I forgot to take a picture of the minced chicken that I sautéed with the mushrooms.

Heheh.

But once you mix the chicken and mushrooms in the sauce,

you'll have something like the above!

That's it! :D

It didn't turn out too bad, for a first attempt.

Phew. Otherwise, my money would have been wasted.

The pasta and sauce will be poured into this tray,

layer by layer and topped with cheeeesseee!

But that's tomorrow!

Hee!

Well, I guess that's about it. I find the taste unique though, but well, at least it's home cooked. My sis keeps pushing me to go for wholemeal food and healthier choices. I have yet to buy my multivitamins. I keep wanting to buy but I don't end up buying because I either forgot or felt just too tired to even walk around. Mum recommended something though, from Herbalife. If I got the spelling right. She said they have this drink that will enable to you to lose weight, if you need to, or gain weight, if you need to.

She said she'll tell her friend to come over to talk to me about it. Sigh. People keep telling me to gain some weight. Hmm.

Sigh. I miss the guy so much. Sigh.

I hate emotional turbulences. It's hard to keep your emotions in check when you have a whole tsunami of them raging inside you.

Until here, salam and may you all be in the best of health. :)