KIRANA WAS THA BOMB !!!

I like this picture because we look so sweet.
I don't like this picture because I look so white and fake.

& SINGAPORE FLYER.
Thank you, Hafiz!!

Hey Rafi!!
Check this out! Your fish!!

It was one tired week, but I love it. Our efforts and hard work over the past few months were worth it. & the Flyer trip came at the right time, as my reward. Thanks again, Hafiz Yusof!

SYAIFUL AMIRIL'S 19TH!!

BIRTHDAY SURPRISE WAS A SUCCESS!
WHOOOOOO~~!!!

SYAI WAS TOUCHED TO TEARS!
SYAI NANGIS!!!

Sorry la kalau aku tak wish kau first first.
Memang dah plan surprise untok kau.
Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!

Happy Birthday la kay?
Another surprise for you here:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAAAAAAA~~!!

FREAKY FRIDAY -.-

The AWWSOME part of my FRIDAY.

The BFFs

Birthday boy & me!

So this is the "cage".
& Zul is wearing red. "How ironic." Hahahahah. **Inside joke**
T3 - after dog scene

The bad parts?:

- Forgetting that it was Friday, and Ahmad goes for his Friday prayers.
- Making a fool of myself in his class.
- Feeling so moronic/idiotic/assholic after that.
- Getting caught in the rain when I actually dressed up for the outing.
- Wet clothes, wet & messy hair, in the freaking cold bus.
- Some sicko guy staring at me on the bus
- Getting myself lost at T2.
- Being so clumsy there.
- Swearing too much.

Which reminds me:

Reminder to self:

STOP SWEARING !!!!!!!

Just a short post before I get too busy.

2 things I saw that made my day, and it's only 1.16pm!!

Ahmad's Twitter

This week's grades!!
LOVELY!
:D

AWW-SOME DAY, MAN, SIMPLY AWW-SOME !!

I shall start from the beginning. Gamelan, as usual. This time, spring cleaning. Polished all the instruments that will be used for Kirana. The end product was beautiful. That Gong picture up there is Gong number (2), my favourite. I don't know why. Haha. Damn shiny, right? Hahah. Then, went off early from training with Ahmad 'cause I had plans to do. Sshhh. Trained down to Jurong East, then trained with Ahmad towards Joo Koon, but he alighted at Lakeside. The trip from Joo Koon to Pasir Ris took exactly ONE hour. Uhh-mayzing. & Ahmad told me something that his nenek said that made me laugh for like, 5 mins? The passengers on the train were like, the heck is wrong with this girl? Plus, while laughing, I accidentally hit the bag of the lady in front of me, TWICE. How memalukan is that?

As I was approaching Pasir Ris, it turned out that the plans were cancelled. I was sad, sad, sad, sad to the sad. So I decided to drop in on Sisto at her second day of work at the Yoghurtz shop or whatever it's called. I was getting the video mode on my camera ready when poof!

NICHOLAS GOH APPEARED IN FRONT OF ME.
SMILING LIKE HE ALWAYS DOES.

I was damn, damn, damn shocked and I don't even know why. It's been such a long time since the last time I saw him. We talked for a while outside the Yoghurtz place, and then went in for the air-con. I wanted to have dinner, so I asked him to tag along 'cause he haven't had his dinner yet. So we went to BK, and gawd, we talked like long lost pals, man. & as usual, he is the lame, lame, lame, funny, funny, funny Nicholas that I've always known. Poor guy's been mugging for his A Level. Hahah. & sheeeeeeeesh, he pretended to forget my name and kept making guesses. The worst was: Faizal. "I know it starts with F." Pfffffffft. Thanks ah. Hahah. It's aww-some, man. Really missed this fellow Coralite. He's one of those people who's so easy to talk to, even though you don't know each other that well. I liked the part about his "education graph". Hahah. Never mind. Man, this guy. Been so long. & can you believe it laaaa? He was the top student for A and E Maths for O's, but when he entered JC, MERIDIAN JC, he failed Maths. I was like, impossible! But that's because he slacked the whole year. -.- Hahaha. Nic, Nic. *shakes head* Good luck for your A's, dude!

& not forgetting my favourite video. I taught this little cutie to say...

Cuteness right???

MAISARAH KAMAL! ALL THE BEST FOR YOUR O'S!!

Reminders to self:
Always do Evaluation (peer & self).
Always do quiz.
MAKAN UBAT!!

Meeting the boys and girl at Changi T2 tomorrow!!!! Yay!!!!

Goodness. Been a while since I last updated. I was really very tired, and very busy. Even in school. There is always so much to do; research, presentation and Gamelan, of course. Which reminds me, Kirana is like, next week! OMG, and I have still yet to work on my singing parts. This is gonna be hard, man. & oh! All tickets are sold out!! Weeeeeeee~~~

I'll post something loooooooong tonight, just in case I'm too busy to update some more over the next few days. :) Brace yourselves!

OMG, my poor phone! Yupps, I dropped it into the toilet bowl by accident, for real. I ain't kidding. I was trying to take my 2nd urine sample (which I found out later that it was to check if I was pregnant. I was like, WTF?) and this darling phone was in my jeans pocket. It must have slipped, and plop! Masok toilet bowl. Kau. Panicked like.... You get the idea. Nak kencing pon tak jadi. I seriously don't remember how I actually took it out from the toilet bowl. Lucky thing is, I haven't peed. Or else, mygod, I can't imagine what would have happened. So, once the phone was out, grabbed tissues and wiped the outside. Rushed out of the cubicle to find a hand-dryer and damn, no hand-dryer. I swore like nobody's business. Gawd. In the end, the phone couldn't be saved. Operation was a failure. :( The phone went sot. Like, really sot. I didn't even press camera, it went to camera mode. Then it locked by itself, and I couldn't unlock it. I was like, fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckkk. & that was the time when I found out that I had to be admitted. How to tell Ahmad and Natasha??? Panicked like shit. Sheeeeeeesh. So yeah. K770i, rest in peace, darling.

& I miss Nenek. It's like, every morning since last Thursday, I will like, hear her voice. & then, when the nurses come to bathe her, she'll like make jokes and I can hear them from the other side of the curtains and it's like so cute. I plan to visit her this weekend. Gonna buy her a new wordsearch book to keep her not bored for the rest of her stay. :)

&&& today was AWWW-SOME!!! A lot of good things happened. One, I got my first B for this semester. It's like, 3rd week, and I got a B! This is like better than last semester. Two, I didn't feel any pain the whole day! Except for the walk to Woodlands Interchange with Ahmad. But I think that's because I laughed so much. Third, watched "The Notebook" with dearest Ahmad. Like, FINALLY. & the movie is sweet, actually, except that err, it's a little porn-ish. & M, why would you cry? I didn't even shed a single tear. I thought A Walk To Remember was a lot sadder, and it's also a novel by Nicholas Sparks. I bawled my eyes out at both the book and movie. But then M, I understand why you like The Notebook. Thanks for sharing, babe! Love you.

& now, the HIGHLIGHT of the day. :)

MY DEAREST AHMAD GOT PRANKED AGAIN !!!!!!!! *EVIL GRIN*

WHOO! YEAH, I FEEL GOOD. SO GOOD, SOOO GOOOOD. :)

But, as promised,

MY DEAREST AHMAD IS STILL AWWWW-SOME !!!!!!!!

Alright, I'm tired now. Goodnight to all! :)

Day 3

Flickr has really good pictures too. You just need to know the place to go.

Had more visitors today. First, was Cik Azizah and her daughter, Ain. They brought me food! Cream crackers, mini oreo, Kit Kat, and the Assorted Chocolate. Cik Azizah used my laptop to show me some food blogs that she wanted me to show my mum. Blahblahblah, I had my lunch (Tom Yam Sotong! Yummm!) and Mum arrived with two helium balloons, one is a Minnie Mouse face, the other is a whole Tweety. Cik Azizah and Ain laughed when I complained. Pffffffft. Then, Cik Azizah left with Ain. Doctor Sulaiman came with the whole team of doctors!! *melts* Hahah. But seriously, he's like, *screams* Okay, calm down. Where was I? Yeah, it turns out that the cyst in my ovary burst, so the fluid sort of came out or something. Some sort of infection happened, and since I was in the middle of my menstrual cycle, I feel the pain. Soooo, yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyeah.

Next visitor is Mirrrrah. Had a shock when I went down to meet her. I was actually looking for her hair, but when she waved at me, I was like, ohmygod. Haha. She was damn funny la just now. Everywhere she go, I must teman her. Like small gegirl, and I'm the mummy. Pffft. The entrance thing, the registration thing. Takot nah when I walk away. Hahahahaha. Ate at Qi Ji, then went up to my ward. Webcammed a while, then watched the 2pm Kiss-The-Pig dare thing. Damn hilarious laaa. Korean guys are quite cute too. Haha. Then, Aunty Liza came. I had a shock, 'cause I'm not really close to her. But I really appreciate her coming. She brought a bag of fruits for me. Heh.

Shortly after Mirah and Aunty Liza left, my darling Nafisah arrived with her mum, Cik Ros. Nafisah marched in the ward with a Minnie Mouse bolster. I was like, ohmygod. First, cartoon balloons, now a cartoon pillow/bolster. Well, Fisah is being, well, Fisah. She loves cute stuff, and I really appreciate it. I have something to hug tonight. Heh. With one hand, of course. & Fisah, jeng3, took out her 450D camera and snapped away at me. Hahah. I was actually busy eating my dinner. Anyway, when they left, and I salam-ed Cik Ros, she hugged me and whispered, "Sabar eh.", and left 20 bucks in my hand. I was, shocked, seriously. & I keep saying the same thing ever since Sarah first came as my first visitor, "Thanks for coming!". Hahah. But oh wells.

Spent some time sitting with the Nenek next to me after that. She is sooooooooo cute. Hahah. Mind you, I grew up without a grandma, and I always wondered what it would feel like to talk to a grandmother. It feels really nice. I did one of her wordsearch puzzles. She's really too cute. :)

Fucking sad, bodoh!

Day 2

I remember that first day so well. Do you?

I was so bored so I watched the Live In Texas videos, the Twister videos and all the other videos I have of W35F. & now, I'm looking through all the pictures I have of you guys, and missing you guys lots. (Don't cry, don't cry.) Okay, subject change!

Maisarah visited me just now at about 12. She freaked out, like, really freak out, at my drip. Wouldn't stop staring at it. Haha. Mai, you have no idea of the real agony. I hope you won't go through it, evarrr. & we talked, like, really talked after whatt, a day of not meeting? Hahah. But hey, who wouldn't miss this girl. & it's so sweet of her to actually skip school just to come see me, taking a 1-hour plus pluss train journey, then bus down to CGH. Thanks, babe! It was nice to see you so early in the day. It kept my mood up. :)

After Sarah left, waited for the CT scan which was at 2. After the scan, I fell asleep when I got back to my room. When I woke up at about 4 to 5 there, I watched Surf's Up. Shia LaBeouf was the voice of Cody or something, if I'm not wrong. Nice to hear his voice, really. Fits that penguin. Haha. Anyway, yeah, waited for the doctor to come around. & my gawd, I'm so thankful that it's not appendics. It's an ovarian cyst. Read up about it here: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ovarian_cyst

The doctors said I could eat, but if I vomit or anything, the drip will have to stay. I was like, faen, but whatever, as long as I can fill my stomach with something solid. Too much air, bodoh! (I've been swearing ever since I got admitted, and it's not good. Syai got the worst of it. Finger all come out. Hahaha.) & downstairs, met the rest of the family and Syai, Natasha and beloved Ahmad. Man, was so happy. Not only because I finally get to eat after more than 24 hours of not being able to eat, but because Ahmad was there!! & Syai, as usual, up to his nonsense. Natasha gave me a REAL sunflower, I was shocked that it was real, I don't know why. Haha. & Syai gave me a leaf he plucked from a tree. -.-

After the guys left, went up to my room with Natasha and we webcammed and facebooked and chatted and all. & I made fun of her. & Natasha says that if I have to remove my ovaries, I get to enjoy sex without worrying about unwanted pregnancy. -.-

Haha. It was great having her around. I laughed a lot, despite the pain, but it's okay. Like what she and Sarah said, it's not always that I get hospitalized. I'm like, .............................. Anyway, here are the pictures we took. Heh. I really look sick, man.

Reminders to self:

Appreciate life.
Appreciate family.
Appreciate friends.
Appreciate food.
Appreciate water.
Appreciate both your hands.
Appreciate good health.
Appreciate the fact that you have it easier than others.
Appreciate those who worry about you.
Appreciate those who love you.
Appreciate those who miss you.
Appreciate the good things in life.
& don't complain when you get the bad things. (like phone masok toilet bowl. -.- )

Basically, appreciate everything that you've got in your life right now.
You'd never know when they'll be taken away from you.

People, learn this lesson that I learnt the hard way.
You're luckier than me to be spared the agony.

It'll be over soon, sweetie.
& when it's all over,
things will go back to what it used to be.
I promise you that.

A thousand, million thank yous to Angela, Hafizah, Natasha, Maisarah, Syai and Ahmad for coming down just to visit me. You guys made my day. & all the get well soon wishes from friends, I can't thank you enough. I'm so thankful to have friends like all of you, really. It's the greatest blessing to have. I love y'all much much!!!!!!! I'll recover as quickly as I can, so that I can see you W35F peeps on Monday! Love ya!

CGH, Level 6, Ward 16, Room 30.

Ibu Long gave the flower thing to me. Hahaha. So cute.

I'm stronger than I thought. It feels really good to know that. Anyway, I pinky-promised Sisto that I wouldn't cry so I ain't gonna cry. I'm not a promise breaker. I won't cry because I feel sorry for myself. I'll only cry because of the pain. & so far, the pain is bearable. :)

Except for the drip, which is bothering me right now. Oh, it's 10.53pm. Time for my eye drops soon. My side is hurting again. Maybe I should lie down. But I'm so freaking bored. Maybe I'll upload Mum's pictures to her website. Orrrr, I can spend this time memorizing Gamelan notes. Orrr, finish reading "The Man Of My Dreams" while I have the time. Oh faen, a senior nurse just came in and told me I can't eat till tomorrow. No, will have to see how tomorrow. I was like, grrrrrrrr.

Man, this is a really interesting chapter of my life. Even though the cause of the pain is still a mystery. Either appendics, or something to do with the ovary. & my mum was like, ehh, lucky you got two, still can have baby if you have to take out one, but the chances are slim. I was like, choy ah, choy, choy, choy ah. She had the nerve to say sucha thing. Pffffffft.

Oh yeah, I dropped my phone in the toilet bowl by accident while trying to take a urine sample. Sekali, plop! Look down, phone sinking. Jump up and go, "Fuck, fuck, fuck. Fuck, fuck, fuck!" Why has my luck been this bad when it comes to my phone? First the lanyard, now... Sighs.

Guess that's all for now. Take care, people!

What If

Le Love just has the most beautiful pictures and stories.

Pretty tired. My side has been hurting since yesterday. It's the area next to your bellybutton. It hurts, seriously. Anyway, class gets boring-er and boring-er each day. The only times that I really have a lot of fun, a lot of smiles, a lot of laughters, are with Syai and the rest of the melayus; eat together during first break, lunching before Gamelan, during Gamelan, and walking home after Gamelan. I miss W35F, seriously. But training for Reflections really tire me out. I actually fell asleep in the bus this morning, and luckily, not on anyone's shoulder. Hahahaahahahahahahahaha. Shhhh.

Right, see the boy in the picture below? He's my nephew!! Hadi is his name. Muhammad Lutfihadi. Cute rigggggghhhhtttttt????????? I feel like hugging him right now. OMG. He's so freaking cute. With the specs and his bogey smile. OMG. I have a couple of videos of him, will upload them another time. He calls me Kakak!! Yay!!! Hahah. The little girl next to him is my sister, by the way. Imagine your aunt being 2 years younger than you. I'm like, O.O. Hahah.

Mygawd, it hurts. Whyyy??

But what if I need you baby?
Would you even try to save me?
Or would you find some lame excuse to never be true?
What if I said I loved you?
Would you be the one to run to?
Or would you watch me walk away without a fight?

AHMAD JUST GOT PRANKED BY ME LESS THAN AN HOUR AGO.

WON'T TELL THE WORLD WHAT I DID.

ASK ME PERSONALLY IF YOU WANT TO KNOW.

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAH.

Catch Me

Followed Ahmad for his jamming session with his friends.
& it was AWESOME.
Seriously.

I don't know why but this week has been a very stressful, emotionally draining, problematic week. Everyone (including me, of course) feel so sad and stuff. & my second month just passed and I had the bad luck to spend the day at CGH, instead of with my favourite boy. But after that, I spent the afternoon at PRP with Natasha and boy, did I have fun. Except that, till now, the bites I got at the park from the ants and mosquitos and whatever, are still bugging me now. Damn itchy.

Okay, a really good Bollywood movie has finally arrived, Dhoom: 2. Hilarious. & it has my Hritik Roshan in it. Weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~~~~~~~!!!! & in this movie, he's the sexiest criminal, EVAARR. Even SIsto agrees. Now, I shall enjoy this movie before I have to start helping for tomorrow's open house.

I miss my favourite boy. Looking forward to Wednesday.

Natasha, hope you're fine. I'm CARVING you into my calendar for Friday. & if Gamelan interferes, I'll ignore it for once. I love you!

But you're so hypnotizing
You've got me laughing while I sing

You've got me smiling in my sleep

And I can see this unraveling
Your love is where I'm falling

So please don't catch me

If this is love, please don't break me
I'm giving up so just catch me

MAISARAH KAMAL, YOU ARE AN AWESOME, AWESOME, AWESOME GIRL!

& YOU MADE MY DAY WHEN YOU GAVE ME THIS.

I can't thank you enough for this.

& I absolutely love the note that came with it.

&& I loooooove ya, babe!!!!!

Thanks sooo soooo sooooo much.

I'd Rather Be Alone

That french kiss story was downright hilarious. I could have choked on that McFlurry. Hahah.

& this cheered me up a little.

But I have a fucking headache right now.

& I'm in no fucking mood for maths.

Well I'll be fine, just laying here tonight.
Thinking about the world.

If you do mind,
Then let me be so I can feel alive again.

It's that feeling of wanting to be alone.

& at the same time, to be around people you love.

I don't know what I want anymore.

I just know, that things won't be the same anymore.

I know I'm spoiling the day for you.

I know I'm spoiling the day for me.

I'm sorry 'cause I can't help it.

Thanks, Shak!

Didn't expect this, and it made my day.

:))

I promised that I'll be strong.

I don't think I am being strong.

I was never a strong person, to begin with.

I'm going to the beach.

& I'm going to cry.

Life.

Thanks.

You suck.

& I hate you.

Last Night

I looooooove manja babies who love to be sayang-sayanged. That's about all that was exciting for today. Had Gamelan. Pfffft.
Damn tired,
but...

Syai was going to Bedok for his Dikir Barat meeting so we took bus 168 together since Mirah had to stay back for her booklet stuff. Belanja-ed Syai a BK meal. MEAL, okay. Ate in the bus, at the back back back. & I digged out more stuffs from Syai. Reminisced the last few weeks of school, when all that action happened. There's still so much more to talk about. So, Syai, you owe me a meal and a good, long talk.

I don't know who you are anymore, don't recognize the person you've become. I'm sorry if I was too busy to be there for you. I'm sorry if I was too tired to lend a listening ear. I'm sorry if I became too irritable when I come back from school. I'm sorry if I made promises but never kept them. I'm sorry that it's because of me, we've become what we are now. I distanced me from you, you distanced you from me. I'm sorry. I wish everything could go back to the way it used to be. I miss the old you.

I need you and you need me
This is so plain to see
And I would never let you go
And I will always love you so, I will

If you could only see, your heart belongs to me
I love you so much, I'm yearnin' for your touch
Come and set me free, forever yours I'll be
Baby, won't you come and take this pain away?